About Me!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My mom found my first name in the dictionary and my middle name is from my Aunt.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Last week when I was having major stress.

3. Do you like your handwriting? Yes and No, some days it's better than others. It looks alot like my Dad's

4 . WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Turkey Breast with Havarti

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 2 and the most beautiful ever.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Probably

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Sometimes

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? YES

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? NO! I'm afraid of heights.

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Golden grahams, Lucky charms, I love cereal so that's hard for me.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Most of the time

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Physically somewhat. Anything else sometimes I don't feel very strong.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM ? Prailines and Carmel and Burnt Almond Fudge

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Hair and Hairstyle

15. RED OR PINK? Red, Never been a big fan of Pink. I do wear it sometimes it get a reaction out of my sisters.

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Overweight

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Ava

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Black shorts, Black socks.

19. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Tomato soup with cheese and club crackers.

20. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The fridge humming and our heater running water.

21. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Navy Blue

22. FAVORITE SMELLS? Baking bread and Danny after he has taken a shower.

23. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Danny at 5am.

24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Summer Olympics, Swimming, maybe Basketball

25. HAIR COLOR? Dark brown with Violet

26. EYE COLOR? Hazel

27. Do you wear contacts? Nope, just glasses.

28. FAVORITE FOODS? Have loads of them. Chicken Enchilada's, Mashed Potatoes with Chicken and Cream of Mushroom soup, Cauliflower Cheese Brain

29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings only!!!

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? The Librarian-Judas Chalis - TV movie and Monster Inc. when Kara was sick.

31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Light blue

32. SUMMER OR WINTER? Really hate them both to hot and to cold. Much prefer Fall

33. HUGS OR KISSES? Kisses but I love to give bear hugs.

34. FAVORITE DESSERT? Apple or Cherry Pie, and Raspberry Cheesecake.

35. What book are you reading now? Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

36. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Don't use one. At work it' Hulk

37. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV. LAST NIGHT? Peep and the big wide world before putting Kara and Christopher to bed.

38. FAVORITE SOUND? Ocean and Dolphins

39. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles.

40. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Ireland unless Germany is farther.

41. Any new news in your life? I'm walking a 5K in May

42. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? In a hospital.

43. WHAT TIME IS IT NOW? 3:30pm. All is asleep at my home. Peace for me.

Long Hair

Wow! I had long hair. Haven't seen that in 4 years.

Weight Loss Update

As of December 15th. I have lost a total of 20 pounds. I am so happy with this progress. I have had a lot of issues to work through. With the help of therapy, overeater's support group, my family and prayer. I have made it this far.

I have officially made a decision that I am going to walk/run my 5K at the Race for the Cure on May 9, 2009. I still have a lot of work to do to get ready. I told my therapist that whether I am ready or not I will crawl across the finish line if needed. Keep praying for me and supporting me how ever you can. I am grateful to you all for the support you have given me this far.

Sleeping Bliss

Today, was a joyous day. I had no where to be. I had nothing pressing to get done. It snowed so much I had no desire to leave the house. Because of this I spent the day with my children. My daughter was sick today. She wanted to just watch TV and snuggle with me. My son was just so happy to have Mommy home he was every minute wanting me to hold him. Later this afternoon Kara had decided to watch Night at the museum. She said Mom I want to watch the Elphie as a statue and then come to life. I was confused what she was talking about until she pointed out the movie. We enjoyed watching the movie together. About an hour in Christopher fell a sleep in my arms. I then noticed that Kara was asleep shortly after that. So for three blissful hours I watched my children sleep. Just relishing in being with them. I enjoyed just having them together. I was able to watch some movies I had recorded on DVR. And sit and enjoy snuggling with my beautiful children. It was such a wonderful day.

The True Meaning of Christmas.

The true meaning for our celebration on Christmas day. To celebrate Jesus Christ entering the world to fulfill his mission on the earth.

I am so grateful to have Jesus Christ in my life to be able to pray and look to him for guidance. It is most important to be reminded of his birth, life, death and resurrection. He did this for everyone. I know his life was for us to have a way to return to our Heavenly Father. I know he is our Savior. Pray to him. Put your trust in Jesus Christ. This is a lesson I am learning each day. Remember his birth. Read Luke Chapter 2.



AUDREY SAYS, HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL.

DANNY SAYS, OH MERRY CHRISTMAS AND ALL THAT JAZZ!

KARA SAYS, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

CHRISTOPHER SAYS, HO HO WHOO WHOO!

Kara says,

"YOUR SQUISHING GRANDMA'S PIE!"

Finish the Sentence

"My roommate and I once: celebrated new years eve and had over 20 they all slept over and had an all night party.

Never in my life have I: Drank alcohol

High School was: Hard, and Horrible. I hated school not for the learning. But that I had too many bad experiences. But I had some good ones too.

When I am nervous: I bite my nails. Bad I know. I have tried to stop.

My hair: is short, great, and beautiful. I love my hair.

When I was 5: I had a Batman birthday party with all my friends.

When I turn my head left: I see the storage room door with a large peek hole.

I should be: not using the word should. It's not in my vocabulary anymore.

By this time next year: I will finished a 5K. And on to more weight loss goals.

My favorite Aunt is: This is not a fair question for I cannot chose. I love them all.

I have a hard time: with a messy house and crunchy snow.

My ideal breakfast is: cereal with milk. mmmm :)

If you visit my home town: you will see the Salt Lake Temple.

If you spend the night at my house: we will have a slumber party and I will make Chicken Enchilada's. If you have had them you will be very excited.

I shouldn't have been: Shouldn't is no longer in my vocabulary.

Last night I: went to the Nutcracker with Kara and enjoyed the wonderful play and my daughter.

I've been told I look like: a beautiful, wonderful, loving person, mother and wife.

Love

I love this picture. I am so grateful that my children get along. They love to be with each other. This picture reminds me how blessed I am to have such wonderful children.

My MANTRA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls7ila3srzI

I was driving home last night from my Dad's house with my family and this song came on and it just hit me. I have been trying to find my mantra. I am making changes in my life with losing weight. At that moment I did with this song from Josh Groban.

JOSH GROBAN LYRICS

You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)


Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When you're heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one is to be heard
You are loved

Allie

My niece Allie brings such a big smile on my face when I see her. She has such a wonderful spirit about her. A few weeks ago. Allie was sick and Amy was home with her. The day that Amy sent this picture of Allie I was having a hard day and was feeling stressed about work and some personal things in my life. Amy sent this picture and I just got a huge smile on my face and started to laugh. It was just what I needed to get me through my rough moment. With the picture she sent one sentence which explained it all.

I WANT ANOTHER BATH.

Thankful

Today I was thinking about what I am thankful for. I am so thankful for Cell phones with cameras. Here are some of the cute pictures that Danny has taken of my cute children.

These pictures have helped me through a hard day or stressful time at work.

Each time I see these pictures they bring a smile on my face.

I remember how grateful I am that I have such beautiful children and that I am blessed to have such wonderful children.

I am grateful for the love I receive each day from each of my children.

Addiction

What makes resisting temptation difficult for many people is they don't want to discourage it completely.

Franklin P. Jones


What addiction do you have?

I've been debating whether or not to post this. But I realized that the only way I can get past this 1st step is to be honest and believe what I am writing.

I have an addition to Food. It controls my life and I turn to it when I need comfort, or when I am stressed, or when I am angry, or when I just can't deal with my life. Their are a lot of things that put me in this place. My childhood, My teenage years, My discouragements, My failures. I realized that the only way I can get past all this is to put it in my past. To admit my problem and FULLY take hold of what it is doing to me.

It has taken me four months to write this. When I first decided if I was going to write this on my blog. I did not have enough faith in myself to do it. When I decided that I was going to need some help getting myself through this. I knew I had so much emotional baggage that I needed to sort through. So I went to LDS Family services to get help. Back in July my therapist gave me a book. It is called The addiction recovery program. When she handed it to me. My first thought was I don't have any addiction why is she giving me this book. As we talked about it and she told me that Eating disorders is an addiction. She talked about support groups and having me go through the steps. I was over loaded. I just didn't want to admit that I had a problem. So I delayed it focused on some of my other issues.

Last month I had a break through and closed an issue I had for a very long time. I was feeling really good. Towards the end of my session. My therapist said, I have a goal I want you to make. I think you are ready. She said, I want you to walk or run a 5K. I just looked at her in shock. My first thought was I can't do that. We talked about it and she wanted me to make a date and pray about it. I went home feeling really good and knowing that I could do this. I was completely terrified. I thought to myself could I walk a 5K. Well I prayed about it and then decided on the weekend to call my Bonus Mom K to ask her if she could find out when some of the 5K's were happening next year. When I called her she just about did somersaults. She was so excited and said she would find out of me. When I got of the phone I thought WOW she is really excited for me. So I decided to call the rest of my family to tell them. Everyone was so excited for me. This made me feel so good. I was so pumped and ready to do this. My goal that I made was to walk a 5K in Spring. April or May. Since none of the information has posted for the 5K's at that time. I have not set an actual date yet. I think I will head for the Race for the Cure. We will see when time gets closer.

I have been doing some exercise every day. It has been a real struggle to keep myself motivated. I think that Danny is excited for me but I don't know if he really thinks I will go through with it. When I told him I asked him to give me motivation when I am feeling down or wanting to be lazy. He has done good so far. Sometimes we both forget. He has been a good supporter.

I talked with my Doctor this week and he said that keeping up the exercise and doing lots of walking is my best bet. He is happy that I have decided to do something and get myself into shape and get healthy. He wanted me to remember that once my 5K is coming and done I need to make a goal what I am going to go next.

I know that I can do this and I am grateful for the support of my family. I am going to a Eating Disorders support group. My first time was this week. I left the meeting knowing that I can do this and that I am not alone. I look forward to continuing with those meetings.

I know that I will not be able to do this without the Lord. I have been renewed that I need to Trust in the Lord and continue to have faith in myself. I would like continued help and support from my family.

I have a plea. I need some good walking shoes and want everyone to be on the look out for some good shoes for me and any sales that may come up. If anyone would like to donate some money to the purchase of these new shoes. Any help would be appreciated. I have also been thinking of other ways I can get motivated. Couple thoughts I have had is a weight loss program or membership to a gym.

My best friend Kristen has recently told me she got a membership to Gold's gym and she loves going every day. She says it helps with stress and keeping fit. We have talked about it every time we talk.

This has been really hard for me to finally post and admit to the world of my addiction. Thank you everyone for all the support you have given me so far.

Family Movie Night

So last night for our movie night. We watched Night at the Museum. We did not get a chance to see it in the theaters. I was wanting to see it. Danny and the children gave it to me for my birthday.

As we started to watch it. Kara asks. "Mom, Elfee there is an Elfee." I said yes there is an elephant. She then says. "Mommy, what is wrong with the Elfee?" I said It's a statue. Then she says "It's dead mommy." I said yes sweetheart it is dead.

As we continued to watch the movie and the museum comes to life. Kara sees the Elephants and she says "Mommy the Elfee is ok. He is alive." I said yes that is right.


As we watched more of the movie. Christopher every time he would see the T-rex. He would start to growl. Showing us that it was a dinosaur. And when he saw the Lions he did the same. He also loved the monkeys too. And he would say "Eeeeaaaah"

We really enjoyed watching this movie. Danny and I laughed a lot. It was a great movie. When we were done watching, Kara said, "Mommy I want to watch it again."
We certainly had a great time watching this together.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY KARA. SHE PICKED THE PICTURES THAT ARE HERE. THERE IS A HAPPY ELEPHANT, HAPPY HIPPO AND A HAPPY KITTY.

MY BABY GIRL IS NOW 4 YEARS OLD. SHE HAS TOLD ME THAT SHE WANTS TO BE A DOCTOR WHEN SHE GROWS UP. SHE LOVES TO DRAW AND MAKE PICTURES OF MOMMY, DADDY, KARA AND CHRISTOPHER.

KARA IS TELLING ME A STORY WHILE I WRITE THIS BLOG. HER STORY IS MOMMY IS SICK AND KARA GROWS UP TO BE A DOCTOR AND HELPS MOMMY GET BETTER AND GIVES HER A SHOT. THE END.

I LOVE YOU MY SWEET GIRL. YOU ARE GROWING UP TO FAST.

The Incredible Hulk

Today Danny, Kara and Christopher and I went down to Far West Comics for the 1 year anniversary. We were able to see Lou Ferrigno as there special guest. I was able to shake his hand. And I got the picture with him. When we were leaving he said "I hope you enjoy the rest of your day."

It was really fun to be there and to have a chance to see Lou Ferrigno. As most people know the Incredible Hulk has been one of my favorites since I was little. I had Hulk toys and pajamas. Now that I am older I have lots of the hulk episodes on DVD and some on VHS. I have Hulk movies and comics. I even have a Hulk Lava Lamp.

The current Hulk movie was great. I really enjoyed watching different sides of the hulk that they have shown.

I am so excited that I had the great opportunity to see Lou Ferrigno. One I will always remember.

Birthday Party for Christopher

I am now 2 years old. I had so much fun at my party. We ate cake and ice cream and had root beer floats. So yummy. I had family from both Mommy and Danny's side. I played at the park and opened lots of presents. Thank you to all my family for the wonderful presents I love them and play with them all and will wear the clothes soon.

Happy Birthday Christopher!

On Christopher's Birthday we decided to visit the Zoo in the morning. Christopher has been so excited about animals we thought it would be fun.

MaMa and Baby Giraffe were fun to watch eating. They did go outside and watched them for a while. Kara especially loved the Baby.


Statue of the Tigers was fun to sit on. Kara did say that it was a little hot. Christopher growled when he saw the Tiger. He really enjoyed watching him walk back and forth.


Well as Gorilla's are Daddy's favorite we watched the gorilla's sleep. Danny got lots of pictures of the Silverback's Hands and Feet close up. Kara and Christopher loved sitting on the ledge and watch the Mommy Gorilla trying to get comfortable.


Kara's favorite is the Elephant's they had a presentation and talked about what they do to take care of the Elephant's Kara loved watching them. She also sat on the elephant and it made noise for her.



The White Alligator was very fun. He wasn't doing much when we saw it. So just pictures of it sleeping was all we got.


Kara and Christopher thought that this was the lemur on Zoobomafoo. One of there favorite shows. So very excited when they saw the lemur.

We had a lot of fun seeing all the animals and enjoying the fun. We also took a ride an the Train and we told the people it was Christopher's birthday and they announced it before we took the ride. It was really fun.

They grow up too fast

How they grow up too fast. I remember this like it was just yesterday. Noah and Kara on Christmas 2004.

Kara in 2006. I just can't believe how they grow up and become so wonderful. Kara said her first prayer in Primary today. She was so big and Danny said she did great. She loves church and primary so much. She looks forward to it each week.


Christopher when he was a day old in 2006.

He then grows up and is now bigger. This is in 2007 just after he turned a year. He will be 2 yrs old on Saturday and I am just amazed how he has grown up and is saying so many more words.


I am thankful for my children. How they put a smile on my face and help me through each day. I am thankful for their spirits and the love I feel from them. I am thankful that they chose me to be their mother. They help me each day to be closer to the lord and strive to be better each day.

HAPPY JULY 4TH TO ALL!

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY! OUR DAY OF INDEPENDENCE.

This nation will remain the land of the free only so long as it is the home of the brave. ~Elmer Davis



Freedom's natal day is here.
Fire the guns and shout for freedom,
See the flag above unfurled!
Hail the stars and stripes forever,
Dearest flag in all the world.
~Florence A. Jones

I AM THANKFUL FOR OUR INDEPENDENCE. I AM THANKFUL FOR ALL THOSE SOLDIERS FIGHTING FOR OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS TO HAVE THAT SAME FREEDOM.

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE SERVED OR ARE SERVING IN THE MILITARY. I PRAY FOR YOU ALL.

MOTHER'S

The mother's I know are wonderful.

My own mom who while growing up we did not get along well. I wanted to be a bad child and she wanted to help me in any way she could. Now that I am Mom I know how she feels. She now is asking to help and I try to accept the help when ever I can. I feel that my relationship with my Mom is better now than it ever has been. When ever I am home on a Thursday she will stop by and visit with us. I looked forward to the visit each week. Now that I am working I miss those visits.

My Mother in law has been a wonderful help and source in my life. She has taken me in as one of her own. We are helping her by having her for dinner each week. So she can have the time and visits she wishes to have with her children. She enjoys my yummy food and visits with Danny and I and she loves playing with the children. She has helped me through some tough times I've had with Danny and has always been there for me.

My 2nd Mom she came into my life only a couple of years ago, when my Dad re-married. She is a wonderful mom and help to me. She has been there to help when I could not find help anywhere else. She enjoys see us and the children. She has a big heart and is always finding ways to help or give us her love.

My Grandma Sonntag she has been such a strength to me. She is always happy and loving to everyone. I have never heard her say an unkind thing about anyone. When grandpa died I knew it was hard for her but she did not show her sadness when around her family. I remember a time just after and I came to visit while family was away and we did not want to leave her alone. I made chicken enchiladas and we watched Singing in the rain. She had never seen that before and she just loved it. I loved having that time with her and enjoying her presence.

My Grandma Shepard I always loved go to grandma's when I was young she always had such good food and I loved playing with her toys. She always loves having her family around to visit with. I remember one time when I had to stay at her house she let me sleep in her bed. She wanted to make it as comfortable as possible so she let me listen to classical music to help me sleep. I remember always enjoying that time with her. She has showed me such strength in all she does. She has worked so hard in all she has done. And has helped me see that we have to work to enjoy life and the blessings of the gospel.

Thank you to all the Mom's out there. I could go on forever about the mother's I know. These are the ones I think about when mother's day comes. All my sister's are mother's and I have learned so much from them as well. I would be writing a novel.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL!

HAPPY HUBCAP DAY!!

A tradition that Kristen, Mary, Helen and I started years ago. Today is Happy Hubcap Day! Since I don't stop and collect hubcaps much any more. I am sending all who looks at this note a Happy Hubcap Day Message.




HAVE A FABULOUS HAPPY HUBCAP DAY AND ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS OF LIFE.