Ba Ba's Goofy Thoughts

Baby Goals

2012-01-20T21:29:00.001-07:00

The last few days have been up and down. I was really discouraged and in the depths of despair. I really just had nothing good to think about. My Dad called Thursday and asked if he could come and talk with me. After the talk and blessing I felt better. I also did Karate last night and got a really good workout in. I felt better today. It was a slow moving day and that was rough. At work I was more distracted today and so my eating seemed a little better. I wanted to have Carne Asada Fries for dinner but refrained.
I was thinking though last night at Karate my ankle and knees were hurting. I think I need to find a good brace for both. I also noticed that my arm muscles were tiring out and feeling weak. So I was thinking some exercise with weights would help build muscle. This is my next step to buy some 5 lb., 10 lb., and on up weights. I checked my weight yesterday and I've lost 6 lbs. So far. Yay! Me. I have made a goal to lose 47 lbs by May for the Race for the Cure 5K. I will then be under the weight that is needed to have Surgery to get my IUD out that is floating in my body. And it will be a safer surgery. Then I will work more toward my goal of the 10K in October with my Bonus Mom.
Well that is all for now.

Struggle

2012-01-15T21:24:00.001-07:00

This weekend has been a bit of a struggle. I was sick on Friday with eating something bad Thursday and just been struggling to get feeling good. Saturday I had no energy but still had to work for my second job as a caregiver for an elderly woman. I plugged through like I do every week and went home exhausted. It's hard when I know that some of my weight issues are emotional and what to do? People ask how they can help and I just don't know.

Emotions

2012-01-11T05:08:00.001-07:00

My weight loss journey is about my weight but also the emotions and experiences that have happened to me. Some days it's harder for me to recognize the emotions and I end up bingeing. Other days I recognize them but don't want to deal with them so I eat to cover them up.
I've been watching other friend that have been working on weight loss and having success and I wish I could hqave success too. Then I have to remember baby steps Audrey. My journey will be different. I can do it.
I've been in the depths of despair so long it taking time to work out of it. With the new year a new start. I'm starting to use my CPAP again. Doing TaoBo in the morning. Now I just need to work more on my nutrition and exercise at night. I've started and I just need to remember baby steps.
My Bonus Mom has challenged me to walk a 10K with her in October. I want to do it. I know I can do it.

My weight loss journey so far

2012-01-09T08:36:00.001-07:00

I just downloaded the blogger app to my phone. I am excited to see how this will work. My journey so far has been a little hard. So far Kara has been good about getting up and doing the 8-minute work-out of Tao-Bo. It's been great to do it together. She has been a good modivator. This is all for now. Look for more in the near future.

When do we have the Spirit?

2010-11-12T22:57:00.003-07:00

Sorry for the long wait between posts. It's been a busy few weeks for me. Well I've been thinking for a while on posting this. I friend gave me this paper and it really hit me. So the questions are When do you have the Spirit? When do you not have the Spirit?

WHEN YOU HAVE THE SPIRIT
-You feel happy and calm.
-You feel full of light, your mind is clear.
-Your bosom burns. You feel generous.
-Nobody could offend you.
-You feel confident in everything you do.
-You wouldn't mind everybody seeing what you are doing.
-You feel outgoing, anxious to be with others.
-You are glad when others succeed.
-You want to make others happy.
-You bring out the best of others.
-You feel like praying.
-You wish you could keep all commandments.
-You feel like you have control over your appetites and emotions, calm and controlled speech, no anger, etc.
-You are generally just glad to be alive.

WHEN YOU DO NOT HAVE THE SPIRIT
-You feel unhappy, depressed confused, frustrated.
-You feel heavy, full of darkness. Your mind is muddled.
-You feel empty, hollow cold inside.
-You feel selfish, possessive, self-centered.
-Everything anyone does bothers you.
-You are always on the defensive.
-You easily become discouraged.
-You want to be alone, avoid others especially family.
-You become envious of what others do and have.
-You are critical of others, especially family and authority.
-You become secretive, sneaky, and evasive.
-You don't want to pray. You get mad when others do.
-You find commandments bothersome and restricting.
-You become a slave to your appetites, emotions, have extreme mood swings, over-indulgence, strong anger, out-spokeness, etc.
-You wonder if life is really worth it.

When I finished reading this. I realized how much I need to work on getting the spirit in my life more. As my week has been so busy. I sometimes tell myself that I don't need to pray or read my scriptures.
I know that the only way to feel the spirit every day and to not sucome to the holds of Satan is to DAILY say your Prayers and Read the Scriptures. The two most simple ways to be close to the Lord and yet some time so hard to do.
My goal this week is to Pray each day and to Read my Scriptures each day as well. When I was in the past doing this daily my life was blessed. I know this to be true.
I hope that if you are not currently having daily prayer and reading scriptures that you will make the same goal for yourself.
I hope this will help you as much as it has helped me.

CTR

2010-10-15T21:51:00.007-06:00

What does the CTR ring mean to you?

To most LDS people out there the CTR ring is a symbol to remind us to Choose the Right. Having that reminder is a great way for me to think before I do something.

In my Eating Disorders Support Group. One of my friends made the comment that when she wears her CTR ring it is a reminder to her to Choose To Recover. I like that. This week I decided that I wanted to get a new CTR ring, to have that constant reminder on my finger that I have chosen to recover. It has been really hard lately for me to focus on my recovery. I had to make some decisions in my life to help give me the encouragement I needed to help me move forward.

One thing that I was reminded about yesterday is. Jesus Christ loves us for who we are. He atoned for the sins of everyone on this earth. He atoned for the sins and sadness I feel. He knows us better than we know ourselves. He doesn't care what we look like. The Lord just wants us to be happy and to know that he is always there to help and guide us.

My challenge for myself an any reading this is:
Seek to see yourself as the Lord see you. Pray and ask for that. I need to love myself the way the Lord loves me.

Faith

2010-10-11T20:56:00.002-06:00

Well today I was struggling about 2pm and I was wishing that I could just eat a big sloppy hamburger. I was trying to think of something to do and as I sat there the impression kept coming to me to get my Book of Mormon out and read it. It took me another hour or so to finally get my Book of Mormon out and I found some scriptures that I had written down from a while ago. So I started to read some of them. The first was Alma 5:15. As I read it the part about Faith really hit me. "Do ye exercise faith in the redemption of him who created you?" Then I read in Alma 9:27. "And behold, he cometh to redeem those who will be baptized unto repentance, through faith on his name." Then I started thinking I need to have more faith in Jesus Christ. I need to remember the reason he suffered for me. Then I started to think How can I exercise more faith? I wrote down a quote on the paper that the scriptures were on and here's what it said.

"The Lord receives you as you exercise your faith in him, as you cleave to righteousness."

Then I started thinking that when I am righteous and do what I am suppose to then my faith grows. A couple of weeks ago I had a day off and was spending some time with my son. We had just returned home and I was fixing us lunch. We had sandwiches and I had an avocado that I needed to use and when I was done my son asked me. "Mommy, what is that? I then said it's the seed. He pondered what I had said and looked at it for a moment and then said Mommy can I have it? I told him sure. We washed it and it carried it around the house for the next 2 days. The seed had dried up and some of the outside skin was peeling off. This story reminds me how faith is like a seed and the story in Alma 32 about faith. In verse 27 it says "Behold, if you will awake and arouse your faculties...and exercise a particle of faith, yea, even if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you..."

As most of my friends and family know I have an Eating Disorder. Compulsive overeating disorder. It is some days such a struggle. For a year and half I've been going to an LDS Addiction Recovery Program. It has really helped me to see how important it is to keep the gospel and Jesus Christ close. I started to think about the first step in the program. It is "Honesty: Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addiction and that your life has become unmanageable." Some days for me this step really hits home because I feel that because I am not as close to Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. My life is in constant unmanageable mode. I am working on that. I know that Jesus Christ suffered for what I go through everyday, every minute. I have the faith that when I do what I am suppose to and work hard my life will become manageable again. It will take alot of work.

You know having an Eating Disorder and addiction is I feel one of the hardest. You have to eat to live. But most of the time I'm living to eat. I am so thankful that I have prayer. I am thankful I have the scriptures. I am thankful for LDS Family Services Addiction Recovery Program. I am so thankful for all the people that support me. I am thankful for my family. My faith sometimes is small but I know it's is growing.

I read one last quote today and it really helped me see why the Lord puts us through trials and hardships.

This is by Adhemar Damiani
The Lord has said, "Whom I love I also chasten that their sins may be forgiven, for with the chastisement I prepare a way for their deliverance." (D&C 95:1) The Lord loves each one of us. He wants us to be happy. This happiness comes by our faith in Jesus Christ, by our sincere and true repentance, by our obedience to his commandments, and by our endurance to the end... If we daily exercise faith, meekness, charity, and lowliness in heart, confessing that Jesus is the Christ and accepting His Atonement, we will be blessed with the strength and hope to face and overcome the trials and pains of this life.

This quote and promises are so amazing. I know that Jesus is the Christ. I know that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true. I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the true and living church on the earth. I know I can exercise the faith that I need. I know that I will be blessed as I continue the path I am going to overcome my eating disorder. I know that Jesus Christ will help me as I do what it says in the quote. I know that the Bible and Book of Mormon are true and inspired scriptures. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen

Thank you to all who have read this. Please post a comment so I know that it's been read.

Going to try something new

2010-10-10T22:47:00.002-06:00

Well I was thinking the other day as I was listening to one of my podcast's that it would be fun and good for me to direct my energy somewhere when I just want to eat. They talked about blogging. So I am going to try and blog more. I am going to work on reading my scriptures more and then blog about what I read and my thoughts or impressions I had about it. I am going to blog about once a week maybe more. I hope you all enjoy.

It's the truth.

2010-03-03T16:19:00.002-07:00

I've been debating about writing this post because it's the scariest thing. I have feared for a long time. I've been overweight for most of my life. It started with when I was young I was so hyper that my Mom would take me to Doctors, Therapists, and Psychitrists. She tried everything to help me calm down. She was told by one of the people that she took me to that certain foods would make me more hyper. So I was not allowed certain foods. This was hard on me and on my siblings. I remember my sisters getting mad that they could not have something as simple as Macaroni and Cheese with Hot Dogs. This made me angry and really hurt. When I got older and in Jr. High there was a Convient store on my way home from school and so to get back at my parents for not allowing me to eat certain foods. I would steal money from there purse or wallet and buy whatever I wanted. This started my food addiction. I found myself eating when I was upset, bored, angry, sad, and sometimes even happy.
Now that I am married and have children. I have struggled with my weight even more. After the birth of my children I became so obese I found myself at a weight that I did not ever or think I would ever be at. I was 405 lbs. That was the breaking point for me. So in April 2008 I decided that I needed to tackle some of the issues I've had with my weight. Especially some of the emotional ones. I started seeing a counselor and in the process I saw two different ones. Things were going really well and I was feeling really good about what I was doing and about myself. I was challenged to walk a 5K and my thought at the time was I could never do that. I then realized that with some excerise and work I could do it. So in May 2009 I walked the Race for the Cure. I had many supporters in this. I completed this walk and I felt great. I really felt that I was working toward a great future. Shortly after that I lost the counselor I was seeing and she felt I could do this on my own. I just didn't feel ready. I still had a big issue that concerned my weight to work through. I was devistated. I really didn't know what to do. I tried working out and continuing what I was already doing. I was just to discouraged with what happened and felt I just could not keep going. It has been really hard for me to get back. I finally got so strapped for money I put my gym membership on hold and stopped. I did walk my own 5K a few months after the one in May. But I was doing it more for show to my family and friends. Currently the only thing that is keeping me from going completely over the edge is my weekly meetings in the Addiction Recovery Program. I went for 3 yrs. In the summer of 2011 Kara had been bugging me to do Karate. I wanted to do it as well but was conflicted since it was the same night as my Addiction Recovery Meeting. I decided that I would start Karate and work a meeting in on another day. Well Karate has been going great I am now an orange belt. My Sensai has been really working us out. I am now slowly starting with things again. Excerise and working on eating right.
I started this post back in 2010 and I feel it still fits with what I am doing so I decided to publish it.

Things that make me happy - The Beach

2010-02-24T22:03:00.003-07:00

The beach is a lot of things for me. It's a place I go in my mind to get away when I need to. I have a picture above my computer of a beach. It's a great place. It has in the picture a beach chair. I imagine myself sitting there and enjoying the view and the peace of the beach and ocean.

It's a place I really enjoy. The couple of vacations I've taken where there is a beach. I loved it. I love the ocean. The sounds of the waves washing in. I enjoyed the not so good attempts to Body Surf. I love swimming.

Heavenly Father was so inspired to create such a beautiful thing. I am so thankful for the beaches and oceans we have.

Indiana Jones makes me happy

2010-02-11T21:48:00.003-07:00

Well my first post is going to be about Indiana Jones and all the many things that I love about him that make me happy.

First off in about May 09' I discovered Podcasts and all the many things you can listen to. I started to search a few things that I have always loved and came across the Star Wars podcast The Forcecast. I started listening to the most current episode and they mentioned Indiana Jones and the Indycast. I just about jumped out of my seat. I came home that night and downloaded some of the episodes. Ed Dolista is the host. After listening to that first show. I was hooked. I love the way he formats the show and how other fans are able to contribute. Rob does great Indy opinion's which is a poll of something Indy related. I love Mitchell's Raider's rant. The trivia always stumps me, so I just enjoy listening to how other's found the answers to the trivia questions. I enjoy Ron the Reviewer and his reviews of anything Indy. Ed and all the crew do such a great job. Right now and the past few months this has brought me so much joy. I look forward to Monday's knowing I get to download my new Indycast episode. Tuesday morning during work I listen. I am always taking notes so I can keep thinking Indy as they say on the Indycast. Thanks for all you guys do.

Next a little history. My first real memory of Indiana Jones was in 1989 when Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade was in theater's. My birthday that year my Aunt that has my same birthday took me to see the movie. It was truly one of the best birthday's I can remember. I saw Raider's and Temple of Doom. But because of that memory and great day. Last Crusade is still my favorite. When I was young my dad had a whip and I would take it into the backyard and try to crack it. I was not very good but it was fun. My Dad and I would watch the movies together and we would always pop popcorn and make it a fun movie night. I even now have the Raider's theme for my Dad's Ring tone on my phone.

This picture is a fun scene for me. I love the relationship that Indy and his Dad had. This scene just brings out the fun. I watched the movies growing up and enjoyed all the fun and excitement I got out of them. I even dressed up as Indy one year for Halloween. My own style Fedora is the only thing I still have. When I got married my husband enjoyed the movies too and so we watched them together. Then I heard they were making a new movie. I was so excited. I saw that the Young Indiana Jones Chronicles was playing on TV so I watched as many as they played. My husband and I went and saw the movie. There was good and bad things that I liked about the movie. But overall I loved it. It was so great to see Harrison Ford as Indy again. I then bought some of the action figures and have one displayed at home and when I had a bigger desk at work I had one displayed there. I also bought a book that talked about the different movies and facts about them. The name of the book escapes my mind right now. Since then I am always looking to collect more things. Due to money restrictions I buy what I can. I did have a Indy filled Christmas. I received the Movie Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull, and two video games for my Nintendo DS. Lego Indiana Jones 2 and Indiana Jones and the Staff of Kings. I've only played a little of each but they are so much fun. I've been interested in collecting more things. A couple of weeks ago while listening to the Indycast they mentioned there was a Young Indiana Jones Pocket Knife. I've always loved pocket knife's and would love to have one. I did search a few places on the Internet but no luck. Maybe someday.

OK so last thing about Indiana Jones that makes me happy is Harrison Ford. He is such an amazing actor. I have loved almost all the movies he has done. He has done so a wide range of different movies and has such great acting skills. But Indiana Jones and Han Solo have to be my most favorite roles he's played. I am just grateful for such great people who have such great talent to entertain us. Some of Harrison Ford's other movies that I have enjoyed watching are the Star War's trilogy, Regarding Henry, The Fugitive, Air Force One, The Witness, Patriot Games, Clear and Present Danger, 6 days 7 nights, Presumed Innocent, Sabrina, Random Hearts, K-19: The Widowmaker, Hollywood Homicide, Working Girl, and The Frisco Kid. I also enjoyed his small role on the TV series Gunsmoke.

Thank you to all out there who give me my Indiana Jones fix and help me be happy. As they say on the Indycase "If adventure has a name it must be Indiana Jones."

Things that make me happy

2010-02-11T18:00:00.001-07:00

Well I was thinking tonight that I wanted to post on my blog. Well I just couldn't think what to post. Then I started thinking about one of the things that my friend told me a few weeks ago. Think about the things that make you happy. So I am going to write my blog about things that make me happy. Each post will be on one thing. I hope you all enjoy.

Feeling the pain

2010-01-28T18:33:00.002-07:00

Well yesterday I had the day off and enjoyed a good day. I went shopping and exchanged some clothes I got from Christmas that were too little. Yes I am way behind. After I went to lunch with my best friend. I dropped her off at her house and I look at my watch it says 3:05pm. Crap I thought I am suppose to pick up my daughter in 5 minutes. I was at least 15 minutes away. So I started on my way. Well I ended up getting to the school at 3:25pm. As we were leaving the school she was upset that she could not play with a school mate and I was not watching where I was going and I landed on a big piece of ice in the middle of the sidewalk. I then felt my foot just go the wrong way and just felt the pain I was already feeling in that foot intensify 100 times. I was in such pain. Thankfully I had the foot wrapped in an Ace bandage since it was hurting earlier. It could have been worse. I got a new ankle brace later that night.

Starting out 2010

2010-01-24T23:51:00.002-07:00

Well 2010 has started out a little rough for me. I was sick and my family was sick too. I've had off and on problems with the heat in our apt. I had a huge fight with my friend and I have not been able to do anything about talking to her. I've been at a stand still on my weight. I feel that everyone is giving up on me and different areas of my life. The lady at my 2nd job had a Mini Stroke and that's been fun to deal with her drama with her family and man she is living with. I've been feeling kinda lost. Made a goal to read my scriptures every day and to have personal and family prayer every day and have FHE every Monday with the family. I have been able to keep those up and it helps me through each day and week. Well that's all I have to say today. Night to all. I am going to post more. I spend too much time on Facebook.

New Template

2009-10-16T23:52:00.001-06:00

Ohhh!!! I saw this new template. And it made me giddy. This reminds me of the 70's, disco, and shag carpet. I love the greenish color and the blue flowers. Oh I am so excited. Yeah!!!

Happy 35th to me!!

2009-09-24T20:05:00.001-06:00

WOW I never thought I would be 35. My birthday day was great. I enjoyed a birthday lunch with my BEST FRIEND Kristen. I enjoyed all the birthday wishes from people at work. I loved the birthday wishes from people on Facebook. I enjoyed the many phone calls, texts, and gifts from Family and Friends. On Saturday I will enjoy a birthday lunch with my Mom, and sisters. Then on Monday I will take the day off and enjoy a trip to Wheeler Farm with Kara and her school class. It's great to be loved and to have a great birthday for a few days.

Just some thoughts I have had today. I enjoyed telling people about my birthday at work. I don't feel 35 yet. I was grateful that I was able to just enjoy myself and just watch TV for a bit when I came home from work.

Things I am grateful for are my family, my health, the gospel, my love for many things, and to just be alive and have the experience of this life. I am grateful for my husband and all he does to help our family, my children and the joy they bring me. I am grateful for Jesus Christ and all he did for us. I am grateful for all my friends and family for all they do.

My sweet daughter Kara wants to leave a note for me with my birthday note so here it is: moooommyyy, bxrhr1234455677890askarayyxcvbmasdfgdfghjklqqqwwweetyipzmaa35hjklzxcvb
love kkkkkkkaaaaarrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaa :)

My Handsome Christopher now wants to leave a note too.
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
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xxxxxxxmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii8888888ddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddfffffffff
Thank you to my sweet children for the fun notes.

Wishing

2009-09-13T20:41:00.003-06:00

So today I am feeling....

And all I want to do is be in the temple. Feeling the presence of the Lord. To be hugged and know that I am going to be ok. That I can work through all that is weighing me down.

Thank you Heavenly Father for giving us our brother Jesus Christ and for the atonement. Thank you Jesus for sacrificing yourself for me. Thank you for always being here for me. Right now I feel I need it 24/7.

Sunday Update

2009-08-23T23:15:00.000-06:00

This is one of the pictures taken on Saturday 8/22/09 when I finished my second 5K. Yah ME!! There will be more to come. So return soon to see the whole story about MY OWN 5K.

I feel like the borg. But I am not the borg. These were all the cables I was hooked up to when they did my Sleep Study. Diagnosis confirmed: Sleep Apnea. I am sleeping better I think.

MY OWN 5K

2009-08-21T21:23:00.003-06:00

Don't give up - You are Loved

Date:
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Time:
7:30am - 9:30am
Location:
Corner of 3rd Ave. and I St. - My house
Street:
162 I St
City/Town:
Salt Lake City, UT

For the past year I've been working on recovery from a food addiction and losing weight. I've lost 60 pounds so far.

I decided that since I was unable to register for the 5K on Saturday. I've mapped out my own route. I will be walking my own 5K.

I've been struggling with keeping on track with my food addiction and I needed some inspiration. I know that doing this will help me work toward the small goals I have for myself. Without the Lord's help I will not succeed.

Anyone can come and walk with me. Even if you don't walk the whole route I would love the company.

Thanks to all who have supported me.

Kara Speaks..

2009-07-26T08:29:00.002-06:00

"I love Auntie Lou. bghhhrp3333331111111. Aunt Mimi I love her. zxxxxxoooooooxxx.
I love Aunt Emilee. I love everyone Mommy." kara

"akxrkzkaraaaa4 I love to play with my cousins. qweryuyio Auntie Lou asdfgghjjklllll Auntie Lou typed different."

"Baby Spongebob is so cute." sconvos123456789034zxcvbnm

"I am Supergirl! I love her. dfKARA SAXTON 123456789000000 QWERRTTUKAOATGZKAKO MOMMY HAS A DIFFERENT NAME. IT HAS LOTS OF K'S AND IS IN BIG LETTERS."

Thought of the Day

2009-07-26T08:13:00.003-06:00

"No family can have peace, no life can be free from the storms of adversity unless that family and that home are built on foundations of morality, fidelity, and mutual respect. There cannot be peace where there is not trust; there cannot be freedom where there is not loyalty. The warm sunlight of love will not rise out of a swamp of immorality."

Gordon B. Hinckley, "In Search of Peace and Freedom," Ensign, Aug 1989, 2

I read this thought this morning and wanted to share. President Hinckley was a great prophet and I know that he was a prophet of God. I know that families can be forever. I know that as we work to do what is right and when we struggle the atonement of Jesus Christ is there to help us through.

Life with Little Stress

2009-07-22T05:13:00.003-06:00

Well I wanted to post about my recent changes in my life. At the end of June I was really struggling with my job and I was worried that I may lose it. I had prayed and asked what I should do. I decided that I would visit the Manager in our Data Entry department to see if she was hiring. She was not. But made the comment that I would be great to have working in Doc Prep. I had wished that could happen. A week went by and things were still the same at work. The rules and requirements were becoming so strict I felt I could not breath. I would wake up stress about going to work and come home stressed about my day at work. I found myself getting frustrated with Danny and the children for small things. I realized that I needed to do something. I went and talked to the Manager again in Data Entry. She said things are still the same. She then suggested that I speak with the Attorney over her department and explain my situation. I waited a couple days and I saw the Manager from Data Entry walk by my desk and she asked if I had talked to the Attorney yet. I told her No not yet. She encouraged me to talk to him so I went shortly after that and talked to the Attorney. He understood my situation and said he would talk with one of the directing attorneys and get back with me. Half hour later he told me every thing was good and I could move. I sorted out all the details and when I could move. Turns out they wanted me to help with calls on July 6th since we had been off for two days for the Fourth of July. So I started my new job in the Data Entry Department on July 9th. I am doing Doc Prep which is pulling credit reports from websites that clients have provided to us. I cover for the receptionist for breaks and lunches or the whole day if she is not here and I am signing. It is very similar to the job I started with at Lexington Law Firm. It has been almost two weeks. I work four 10 hour shifts. I have Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday off. I come home and I am not worried about work. I just enjoy my children and Danny. I look forward to going to work. I talked with my Manager yesterday and she told me. I've been doing a great job and she is so grateful to have me in her department. This last week with the Regular Receptionist out for the week and issues with the person covering she was grateful she had me to help out. She has been happy with all the other work I have done. The only stress I have had about work this week. Is when the computer at the reception desk broke. They had to replace the power supply and adjust a few things.

I thank my Heavenly Father for all the blessings I have received. I am grateful that I have a good job. I am so grateful for Danny and the work he put in to be home early enough for me so I can be to work on time and all the work he does watching the children while I am at work. I am happy that I can have more time with my family.

10th Wedding Anniversary

2009-07-16T23:01:00.001-06:00

Yesterday was our 10th Wedding Anniversary. It was such a great day. We decided to spend time being together and enjoying each other. My Mom took the kids in the afternoon and we went and watched a movie. X-men Orgins - Wolverine. Very good movie. I really enjoyed it. Then we went to dinner we enjoyed the tastes of the Olive Garden. MMMMMmmm it was soooo good. I tried something new and it was really good. We talked about most memorable moments, funny things we remember, a rare moment that might have been forgotten, and talked about where we want to go from here. Talked about some small goals to help continue our path in marriage. It was so nice to just enjoy us together with no kids.

Love and Support

2009-07-10T06:15:00.003-06:00

Doctrine and Covenants 84:88
"And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."

Every Thursday night I go to an Addiction Recovery Program meeting for eating disorders. Last night one of the missionaries shared this scripture. We had talked about step 1 "Honesty. Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable."

As we talked about recognizing our addictions it helped me be reminded how important Jesus Christ and his atonement is in my life. We read through the Introduction and there is a paragraph that says, "By being humble and honest and calling upon God and others for help, you can overcome your addictions through the atonement of Jesus Christ. Just as we are recovered, you can recover and enjoy all the blessings of the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Last night I thought about what is holding me back from moving forward and losing more weight. It is because I am not Trusting in the Lord to help me. I keep thinking to myself that I have to do it on my own. I am so grateful that I recognize that I need to Trust in the Lord and let him help me. Step 3 is "Trust in God. Decide to turn your will and your life over to the care of God the Eternal Father and His Son, Jesus Christ."

I know that I need to start Trusting in God now. I've been stubborn. I just keep thinking that I can do this on my own. I need to have control. I won't get very far on my own. I need the help of God. I need to trust in Jesus Christ and his atonement. That is why it is there.

I am so grateful to my counselor for introducing me to this program. I look forward to going each week and be uplifted and fulfilled with God's love for me and others struggling with a similar addiction as mine.

I want to thank all who have and will continue to support me. I struggle everyday to do the right and to reach to God when I need him. This will be a lifetime process for me. I am grateful that I have people around me that support me to keep me going.
Thank you all.

Quotes from LDS Family Services Addiction Recovery Program: A Guide to Addiction Recovery and Healing.

Meeting I attend is Thursday night at 7:30pm at the Highland High School Seminary Building.

Fun Music videos I watched tonight

2009-07-04T01:23:00.002-06:00

Alvin and the Chipmunks - Shake your groove thing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIaTEOUCft0

Fun Factory - I wanna be with you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjhxIrcTgeU

Duffy - Mercy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kOCpfTP

BatBaby - Hilarious Preview.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGjiXddgayQ

I hope you enjoy. I certainly did tonight. Dance and move your body.

Things that make me happy

2009-06-11T18:25:00.004-06:00

I needed to be reminded of what blessings I have and what makes me happy. So here it is.

Seeing my family every day makes me smile and happy. When I come home from work I see my family and the kids come running to see me and I am so happy to home.

Jesus Christ and the gospel. I know help me get through the trials of life. I realized that this last couple weeks how important staying close to the Lord is. I have always loved this picture. I imagine myself sitting next to Jesus and us looking out and talking.

Kittens and Cats are such wonderful creatures. I can't resist a kitten. I love to hold them. I also love when they will sit with you and let you pet them. I always loved when any of the cats we have owed. Licked me. I always knew they loved me.

I've always loved cycling. I hope that I can get a nice bike. It was one thing that helps me get away from life for a while.

Love bluebells because they are blue my favorite color. The look like bells.

Stargate Atlantis. I love this show. It has great action and the actor and actress' are great. I love watching the episodes over and over.

New Phone

2009-05-11T20:29:00.002-06:00

WoooHooo!!! Yipee!! YeeHaa!!

I am getting me new phone this week. I am so excited. When we got our tax refund I was thinking that we had other things that we would need to use it for and so I am feeling sad that I could not get my new phone. I decided to check the Sprint website anyway. It was FREE!!! Yeah I am so excited I will have my new phone hopefully by Friday.

Oh I can't wait. I am a gitty school girl.

The 5K is here.

2009-05-09T06:49:00.002-06:00

This is one of the reasons I am doing this.

I am just sitting here eating my breakfast and I am nervous. I wanted to have some eggs for breakfast for some protein. But there was none left. So I figured something else out. I am really excited about today. I have my whole family supporting me all in what they can do. My Dad and Bonus Mom and all my Bonus Brothers and Sisters do this every year. I am excited to see them. Lena, Emilee and my best friend Kristen are going to walk with me. I want to thank my therapist for believing in me. I have learned so many amazing things from her. She has showed me that I am more than I think I am. She helped me see that I can't do anything with out the Lord help. Well Amy, Nik and My Mom are going to be at the finish line. Lou has been busy with moving and getting her new place ready with Emilee. I am so grateful that I have such a great family that love me. I realized that my support was there and just wasn't seeing it. Thank you everyone for believing in me. My support group I go to on Thursday nights all the people I see there are supporting me. Sister Pederson one of the missionaries is a wonderful lady and she told me that she would be thinking of me today. This is a small step toward my ultimate goal. Now that this time is here I have to start thinking of my next goal to keep me going. Well must finish getting ready. Kristen will be here soon.

Obsession

2009-05-02T00:57:00.005-06:00

These are two reasons I get up every day and I commit to myself that I am going to continue my recovery from my food addiction.

Tonight I finally got the children to bed and I was going to go to bed myself and then I thought. I better check my Farm on Facebook so none of my crops go bad and lose money. I realized that I am obsessed with Farm Town on Facebook. The kids love helping me and they tell me what to plant. The love all the animals I have. I realized that I did not have enough to do with Farm Town so I log into Danny's Facebook and I set him up with a Farm so I could take care of that.

Couple of weeks ago in my Eating Disorders Addiction Recovery Meeting I realized that when I try not going to Food when I am having the moment of whatever when my Food addiction wants to take over I've been going to Farm Town. The only problem with that is once I get started I get sucked in for 3-4 hours on the computer. I've done nothing else the last couple weeks. I checked my e-mails tonight and each had at least 150 to 300 emails in them. This week I was reminded that the most important thing with recovering from my addiction is the gospel and the atonement of Jesus Christ.

Satan is trying to use every tool he can to get me down and pull me away from what's important. I find myself staying up late more like tonight. I've been kinda nervous about my 5K coming up in exactly a week. I think that Satan is trying so hard to get me so frustrated and discouraged that I will just not go. I won't let him. I told my therapist that if I had to crawl across the finish line I would.

One of the things that has been hard on me is I been working so hard and I don't feel that I am getting enough support from those that want this so bad for me. There are some that have been so much better than others and I am so grateful. I have realized that I am doing this for me and my family. I need to focus on that reason and not be so concerned about the other stuff. As I think about it, most people I know don't understand what I go through every day to stay on the right path with my addiction. It is a constant process.

I am so thankful that I have Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to help me through this. Sometimes I start thinking that I am doing this on my own and I'm not. They are always with me. I just need to accept and trust in them.

Thought of the day

2009-05-01T07:54:00.000-06:00

Recognize the goodness of God and your dependence upon the atonement of Jesus Christ and then act upon it.

30 Random things about me.

2009-03-28T21:25:00.000-06:00

In trying to keep this blog updated more regularly I am posting this random survey I had saved. Enjoy. I know I did filling it out.
1. Have you ever been searched by the cops? Nope. But been busted by the cops once.
2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters? Yes only on the dropping parts.
3. When’s the last time you’ve been sledding? 12 years ago.
4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? With my husband only.
5. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes
6. Do you consider yourself creative? Yes, I just don't express it enough.
7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife? Yes
8. Team Aniston or Team Jolie? I have always liked Angelina Jolie for her movies.
9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics? Some but not enough.
10. Do you know how to play poker? Yes but I am rusty.
11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? Yes on my mission once cause I couldn't sleep.
12. What’s your favorite commercial?
13. Who was your first love? Daniel James Saxton my husband. Christopher Watkins was my first crush.
14. If you’re driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around you, do you run a red light? I have done it a few times.
15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? Yes
16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees? No preference.
17. Have you ever been Ice Skating? Yes alot when in my singles ward.
18. How often do you remember your dreams? Twice a week.
19. What’s the one thing on your mind? Always Food.
20. Do you always wear your seat belt? No
21. What talent do you wish you had? Dancing.
22. Do you like Sushi? Never had it and probably won't raw fish eggs sound gross.
23. What do you wear to bed? Usually just my underwear. I do wear a nightgown sometimes.
24. Do you truly hate anyone? No, just hate things people do.
25. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be? Harrison Ford
26. Do you know anyone in jail? Yes, Danny's Uncle
27. What food do you find disgusting? Sushi
28. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back? Sometimes in high school. Not now that I can remember.
29. Have you ever been punched in the face? Once
30. Do you believe in angels and demons? Yes. Jesus Christ and people who have died are our angels. Satan and his followers are demons.

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY

2009-03-17T07:03:00.003-06:00

This day always reminds me of my mission on Ireland. I love the Irish and was happy to be among them. So we celebrate a piece of Irish history today.

Happy St. Patrick's day to you all. ERIN GO BRAGH - Ireland Forever.

Thought of the day

2009-03-11T07:15:00.000-06:00

Always remember the love a Mother has for her child and apply that same love to yourself. Remember that Jesus said, Love one another as I have loved you.

5K on May 9, 2009

2009-03-04T22:36:00.003-07:00

As you have been reading on my blog. I will be walking the Race for the Cure 5K. I am really excited. I've been exercising 3 times a week or more. I decided to get a membership to a gym to help me through. I've been doing some exercise at home with my children. And they love it. I've been making better food choices and cutting my portions. So far I have lost 44 pounds. 15 pounds of that in the last month and week. I have also been going through the LDS Family Services Addiction Recovery Program. This program has helped me see that through the Lord everything is possible. I am recovering from my Food Addiction. I go to a Support Group for Eating Disorders every Thursday night at the Highland Seminary building at 7:30pm. I would love to have any of you come if you wish. The group is amazing it has helped me see that there are others struggling with my same or similar issues and we support and help each other.
I am so thankful to my therapist for encouraging me to do something that I never thought I could. She has helped me see the amazing power I have to accomplish things I never thought I could. I am so thankful to the Lord for guiding me. I am so thankful for the love he shows to me. I see the amazing things he has given us to push through the trials and temptations of this life. I am so thankful for prayer and scriptures.

Well if you want to walk my 5K with me here is the website that you can do that at. You can register as an individual. If you decide you would like to join me comment and tell me so I can be excited to have you join me in this journey.

http://race.komenslc.org/site/TR?fr_id=1000&pg=entry

Once my 5K is over I would love to take a vacation to a beach similar to this. This is one of my happy places.

Kara and Christopher Post

2009-02-21T08:15:00.005-07:00

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222kkkaarrraaaa This is a product of Kara wanting to push the letter K. She is obessed today with it.

CCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCChhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssssssstttttttttttttttttooooopppppppppphhhhhhhherrrrr222222 This is a product of Christopher w=anting to be like sister and press the letter C.

FoeHawk

2009-02-19T17:15:00.001-07:00

Amy cut my hair today and and I got a Joico it was so nice. I was looking for something new so here is my new hairdo. I am excited to play with this.

Kara wanted to add a K to my post. So here it is. kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK Kaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrra

My little Batman

2009-02-09T07:35:00.002-07:00

Christopher at Halloween wanted to be Batman. So we went to Wal-mart the night before Halloween and found this mask. He wore it around the store for a while and then he took it off. He was so excited about it. He wore it around the house. Well when it was time to get ready for Halloween. We could not find a Batman costume so we ended up buying Batman and Superman pajamas. When it was time to get him dressed. He saw the Batman and Superman pajamas and wanted to wear "Fly Mommy, No Batman" So he was Superman for Halloween.

He loves Batman as much as Superman(Fly). But I loved the picture and wanted to show it off.

My famous Husband

2009-02-02T22:59:00.002-07:00

So Danny's has been just excited and going crazy with the new He-man action figures they are doing. He visits www.he-man.org everyday and comments and sends photo's. Well Danny sent some of the photo's he took of his He-man action figures to a guy on the website and he made a movie of all the different photo's he received from fan's.

Visit www.he-man.org to view the video showing from January 30th.

Or copy and paste this link http://blip.tv/file/1698396

Smallville

2009-01-29T18:02:00.003-07:00

Smallville has been one of my most favorite TV shows playing. I have enjoyed every season. They had some seasons that were not as great as others. I look forward to watching each episode. There are many things I love about the series. One is of course Tom Welling he is an amazing actor and great model. He plays Clark Kent so well. I also love the relationship Clark has with Chloe. I am so glad that with this season they are working on the relationship with Lois Lane. I hope that they stick with it.

Draper Temple Openhouse

2009-01-25T22:53:00.002-07:00

On January 23,2009. I took Danny and the children to see the Draper Temple. It was a wonderful experience. We were running late because of the weather. We ended up at the wrong church. They were good and we finally got on the bus to the temple. Kara and Christopher loved the bus ride. They wanted to see everything going on. When we arrived at the temple walking through was so beautiful. Kara loved all the sparkles. Christopher like the cows (oxen) as he says. The paintings they had were magnificient. Danny loved the celestial room. Audrey loved the celestial room as well and the many paintings. Just feeling the spirit there was amazing. Kara and Christopher could not wait to have there cookies and water at the end. The bus ride back from the temple was great for the children. It was amazing to be in a place I wish to be every day.

Painting with my Children

2009-01-24T19:43:00.004-07:00

Christopher had fun painting his face, hands and arms.

Kara's art. Left there is a sun and fast fast cars and a cookie. On the Right is Rolly.

Audrey's painting of Superman. Close up of Superman himself.

Christopher's painting and stamping with different vehicles and sea animals.

Audrey's Superman. A close up picture.

More of Kara's art. Left is Crabs in the sea with a red sun. Right is Spots and a Flag to Go, Go, Go.

Audrey's Superman. Complete view of picture.

Toys that are loved.

2009-01-19T17:53:00.001-07:00

"My favorite pony and fairy"

"Mommy, Puppy"

The Best Necklace ever!

2009-01-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

Lena, my wonderful sister in law gave Kara and I necklaces for Christmas. Thursday night Kara found my necklace and wanted me to wear it. So I wore it out that night. New years day I gave Kara her necklace and she has been wearing it ever since. She loves it so much. She talks about it all the time. Kara told me that wanted me to be beautiful too. Thank you so much Lena for the best necklace ever!

Lena works for the company that makes this jewelery so I know where to get it.

Thankful Sunday 01-11-09

2009-01-11T06:00:00.002-07:00

-Thankful for antibiotics. I have had the same sinus infection for almost a month. I am starting to feel better. I hope that the medicine I am taking with help me kick it.

-Thankful for support and motivation from family, friends, and my therapist. Getting myself this far in my weight loss and pulling myself through my emotional baggage has been really hard. I could not have done any of what I did without it and Jesus Christ. We can not succeed with anything in this life without trusting in Jesus Christ to help us in all we do.

-Thankful for this blog. I found it is a good way to let go of my stress and write. Rather than going to the fridge and eat. You will see more things posted more often. So come back more regularly. I've found myself posting sometimes 2-3 posts in a day if I need to.

-Thankful for my job. I've worked at Lexington Law Firm for 4 years, 3 months. This job has brought so many good things to our life. I started working from home this was right after Kara was born so I could work here and be with her. Then in December 08' they made some changes and my whole department was replaced with a machine. I then applied for a different position and started there. I now work as a paralegal. It can be stressful at times. But they make it fun. Just this last summer when the new Batman movie came out The Dark Knight my work paid for everyone to go see it. They did games and fun activities during the week. One of the games was The Biggest Batman Item. I decided with Danny permission to take all the Batman action figures he had for this game. So I had the Biggest Batman collection. Well I won. They gave me $50 in gas cards. I was very grateful at the time. Gas was so crazy. It was a life saver.

Love these pictures.

2009-01-10T11:56:00.002-07:00

This is one of the cutest pictures.
Noah, Lena and Kara.

One of the cutest smiles I have seen.
Lena and Kara.

Thankful Sunday 01-04-09

2009-01-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

My FOUR Hour project this day. I'm thankful I had the energy and desire to clean. And to spend time with my children and get something useful done.

As you can see from the pictures. My children's room is CLEAN. It took me four hours to completely clean the whole room. I would like to give you a run down of what I did.
Well before I started. Before I moved any furniture, the bookcase is now where the blue dresser is and the dresser where the bookcase is. In front of the bookcase there was piles of books all over the floor and all over under Kara's bed. Also piled with the books were empty toy boxes and some toys. I started there and clean up all the toys moved the toy boxes and then put the books in boxes. I then moved the bookcase and vacuumed. Then I cleaned all the summer clothes of Kara's off the dresser and moved the dresser. I then decided that I was going to clean under Christopher's bed and vacuum. When I pulled his bed out the children saw a dead bug. Kara said "Mom don't touch the bug it may bite you." During this whole process the children were having so much fun helping me clean. I then moved Christopher's bed back. My next process was moving Kara's bed without dropping the pile of books I put on it. Once I got the bed moved. I found a very large pile of books under her bed with toys and stuffed animals mixed in. Both children went crazy with excitement. They helped me get the books and toys cleaned up. Then in the corner of the room I noticed that there was a spider. As most of you know. I hate spiders. So I was very careful not to disturb the spider til I could get the vacuum and suck it up. The children were really good about helping me. I then vacuumed up the spider and a couple dead bugs and the children helped pick up the remaining toys. We then very carefully moved Kara's bed back and started to organize the books in the bookcase. I took out all the coloring books and stacked them on the left side of the bookcase. And any broken books or comics were placed on the right side. They had so many books I could not fit them all. I had to get rid of some they just don't read and put a few on the side of the bookcase. I then put the dresser in it's place and moved the lamp and radio to the top of the dresser. I cleaned off Christopher's dresser that was piled with summer and too little clothes. Kara then helped me change and make her bed. And I did Christopher's with Danny's help. Kara had to arrange her animals for her bed. She could not decide where she wanted them. I then did one last vacuum of the room. I was so happy with what I had done. My neighbor and wonderful friend Linda had to come down and see. She was very impressed. I went to bed exhausted.

-Thankful for my Children. For all the help they gave me. They are such wonderful children. They bring so much joy to me.

-Thankful for the distraction. My whole purpose for cleaning was they needed it. But Danny lost his coat on Saturday night. We think he left it at McDonald's when we ate dinner. I called and they said they did not find it. So to get into my closet I had to clean to see if one of my older coats was in there. No luck on the Coat. We are going to need to get Danny a new coat. He has been using my coat for his newspaper route since it has been so cold. I am so thankful for all Danny does. It is so hard for him some days to get up at 2:00am and deliver newspapers. I am so thankful for all he does to help with children and working. Thank you my wonderful Danny. I Love you so much!

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Peanut Brittle

2009-01-02T20:22:00.002-07:00

Ok, I know this is kinda crazy. I was sitting here and decided that I wanted to talk about Peanut Brittle. I love the stuff. It has peanut and the candy brittle is like a wondrous treat. I could eat it all year round.

Tell me about your love for Peanut Brittle. What do you like about it?

About Me!

2008-12-28T14:52:00.002-07:00

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My mom found my first name in the dictionary and my middle name is from my Aunt.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Last week when I was having major stress.

3. Do you like your handwriting? Yes and No, some days it's better than others. It looks alot like my Dad's

4 . WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Turkey Breast with Havarti

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 2 and the most beautiful ever.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Probably

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Sometimes

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? YES

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? NO! I'm afraid of heights.

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Golden grahams, Lucky charms, I love cereal so that's hard for me.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Most of the time

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Physically somewhat. Anything else sometimes I don't feel very strong.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM ? Prailines and Carmel and Burnt Almond Fudge

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Hair and Hairstyle

15. RED OR PINK? Red, Never been a big fan of Pink. I do wear it sometimes it get a reaction out of my sisters.

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Overweight

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Ava

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Black shorts, Black socks.

19. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Tomato soup with cheese and club crackers.

20. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The fridge humming and our heater running water.

21. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Navy Blue

22. FAVORITE SMELLS? Baking bread and Danny after he has taken a shower.

23. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Danny at 5am.

24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Summer Olympics, Swimming, maybe Basketball

25. HAIR COLOR? Dark brown with Violet

26. EYE COLOR? Hazel

27. Do you wear contacts? Nope, just glasses.

28. FAVORITE FOODS? Have loads of them. Chicken Enchilada's, Mashed Potatoes with Chicken and Cream of Mushroom soup, Cauliflower Cheese Brain

29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings only!!!

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? The Librarian-Judas Chalis - TV movie and Monster Inc. when Kara was sick.

31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Light blue

32. SUMMER OR WINTER? Really hate them both to hot and to cold. Much prefer Fall

33. HUGS OR KISSES? Kisses but I love to give bear hugs.

34. FAVORITE DESSERT? Apple or Cherry Pie, and Raspberry Cheesecake.

35. What book are you reading now? Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

36. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Don't use one. At work it' Hulk

37. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV. LAST NIGHT? Peep and the big wide world before putting Kara and Christopher to bed.

38. FAVORITE SOUND? Ocean and Dolphins

39. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles.

40. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Ireland unless Germany is farther.

41. Any new news in your life? I'm walking a 5K in May

42. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? In a hospital.

43. WHAT TIME IS IT NOW? 3:30pm. All is asleep at my home. Peace for me.

Long Hair

2008-12-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

Wow! I had long hair. Haven't seen that in 4 years.

Weight Loss Update

2008-12-26T22:57:00.003-07:00

As of December 15th. I have lost a total of 20 pounds. I am so happy with this progress. I have had a lot of issues to work through. With the help of therapy, overeater's support group, my family and prayer. I have made it this far.

I have officially made a decision that I am going to walk/run my 5K at the Race for the Cure on May 9, 2009. I still have a lot of work to do to get ready. I told my therapist that whether I am ready or not I will crawl across the finish line if needed. Keep praying for me and supporting me how ever you can. I am grateful to you all for the support you have given me this far.

Sleeping Bliss

2008-12-26T22:09:00.003-07:00

Today, was a joyous day. I had no where to be. I had nothing pressing to get done. It snowed so much I had no desire to leave the house. Because of this I spent the day with my children. My daughter was sick today. She wanted to just watch TV and snuggle with me. My son was just so happy to have Mommy home he was every minute wanting me to hold him. Later this afternoon Kara had decided to watch Night at the museum. She said Mom I want to watch the Elphie as a statue and then come to life. I was confused what she was talking about until she pointed out the movie. We enjoyed watching the movie together. About an hour in Christopher fell a sleep in my arms. I then noticed that Kara was asleep shortly after that. So for three blissful hours I watched my children sleep. Just relishing in being with them. I enjoyed just having them together. I was able to watch some movies I had recorded on DVR. And sit and enjoy snuggling with my beautiful children. It was such a wonderful day.

The True Meaning of Christmas.

2008-12-24T16:05:00.000-07:00

The true meaning for our celebration on Christmas day. To celebrate Jesus Christ entering the world to fulfill his mission on the earth.

I am so grateful to have Jesus Christ in my life to be able to pray and look to him for guidance. It is most important to be reminded of his birth, life, death and resurrection. He did this for everyone. I know his life was for us to have a way to return to our Heavenly Father. I know he is our Savior. Pray to him. Put your trust in Jesus Christ. This is a lesson I am learning each day. Remember his birth. Read Luke Chapter 2.

AUDREY SAYS, HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL.

DANNY SAYS, OH MERRY CHRISTMAS AND ALL THAT JAZZ!

KARA SAYS, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

CHRISTOPHER SAYS, HO HO WHOO WHOO!

Kara says,

2008-12-23T19:59:00.002-07:00

"YOUR SQUISHING GRANDMA'S PIE!"

Finish the Sentence

2008-12-23T19:53:00.004-07:00

"My roommate and I once: celebrated new years eve and had over 20 they all slept over and had an all night party.

Never in my life have I: Drank alcohol

High School was: Hard, and Horrible. I hated school not for the learning. But that I had too many bad experiences. But I had some good ones too.

When I am nervous: I bite my nails. Bad I know. I have tried to stop.

My hair: is short, great, and beautiful. I love my hair.

When I was 5: I had a Batman birthday party with all my friends.

When I turn my head left: I see the storage room door with a large peek hole.

I should be: not using the word should. It's not in my vocabulary anymore.

By this time next year: I will finished a 5K. And on to more weight loss goals.

My favorite Aunt is: This is not a fair question for I cannot chose. I love them all.

I have a hard time: with a messy house and crunchy snow.

My ideal breakfast is: cereal with milk. mmmm :)

If you visit my home town: you will see the Salt Lake Temple.

If you spend the night at my house: we will have a slumber party and I will make Chicken Enchilada's. If you have had them you will be very excited.

I shouldn't have been: Shouldn't is no longer in my vocabulary.

Last night I: went to the Nutcracker with Kara and enjoyed the wonderful play and my daughter.

I've been told I look like: a beautiful, wonderful, loving person, mother and wife.

Love

2008-12-23T15:44:00.001-07:00

I love this picture. I am so grateful that my children get along. They love to be with each other. This picture reminds me how blessed I am to have such wonderful children.

My MANTRA

2008-11-30T16:44:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls7ila3srzI

I was driving home last night from my Dad's house with my family and this song came on and it just hit me. I have been trying to find my mantra. I am making changes in my life with losing weight. At that moment I did with this song from Josh Groban.

JOSH GROBAN LYRICS

You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When you're heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one is to be heard
You are loved

Allie

2008-11-30T16:18:00.002-07:00

My niece Allie brings such a big smile on my face when I see her. She has such a wonderful spirit about her. A few weeks ago. Allie was sick and Amy was home with her. The day that Amy sent this picture of Allie I was having a hard day and was feeling stressed about work and some personal things in my life. Amy sent this picture and I just got a huge smile on my face and started to laugh. It was just what I needed to get me through my rough moment. With the picture she sent one sentence which explained it all.

I WANT ANOTHER BATH.

Thankful

2008-11-30T15:59:00.006-07:00

Today I was thinking about what I am thankful for. I am so thankful for Cell phones with cameras. Here are some of the cute pictures that Danny has taken of my cute children.

These pictures have helped me through a hard day or stressful time at work.

Each time I see these pictures they bring a smile on my face.

I remember how grateful I am that I have such beautiful children and that I am blessed to have such wonderful children.

I am grateful for the love I receive each day from each of my children.

Addiction

2008-10-12T19:50:00.001-06:00

What makes resisting temptation difficult for many people is they don't want to discourage it completely.

Franklin P. Jones

What addiction do you have?

I've been debating whether or not to post this. But I realized that the only way I can get past this 1st step is to be honest and believe what I am writing.

I have an addition to Food. It controls my life and I turn to it when I need comfort, or when I am stressed, or when I am angry, or when I just can't deal with my life. Their are a lot of things that put me in this place. My childhood, My teenage years, My discouragements, My failures. I realized that the only way I can get past all this is to put it in my past. To admit my problem and FULLY take hold of what it is doing to me.

It has taken me four months to write this. When I first decided if I was going to write this on my blog. I did not have enough faith in myself to do it. When I decided that I was going to need some help getting myself through this. I knew I had so much emotional baggage that I needed to sort through. So I went to LDS Family services to get help. Back in July my therapist gave me a book. It is called The addiction recovery program. When she handed it to me. My first thought was I don't have any addiction why is she giving me this book. As we talked about it and she told me that Eating disorders is an addiction. She talked about support groups and having me go through the steps. I was over loaded. I just didn't want to admit that I had a problem. So I delayed it focused on some of my other issues.

Last month I had a break through and closed an issue I had for a very long time. I was feeling really good. Towards the end of my session. My therapist said, I have a goal I want you to make. I think you are ready. She said, I want you to walk or run a 5K. I just looked at her in shock. My first thought was I can't do that. We talked about it and she wanted me to make a date and pray about it. I went home feeling really good and knowing that I could do this. I was completely terrified. I thought to myself could I walk a 5K. Well I prayed about it and then decided on the weekend to call my Bonus Mom K to ask her if she could find out when some of the 5K's were happening next year. When I called her she just about did somersaults. She was so excited and said she would find out of me. When I got of the phone I thought WOW she is really excited for me. So I decided to call the rest of my family to tell them. Everyone was so excited for me. This made me feel so good. I was so pumped and ready to do this. My goal that I made was to walk a 5K in Spring. April or May. Since none of the information has posted for the 5K's at that time. I have not set an actual date yet. I think I will head for the Race for the Cure. We will see when time gets closer.

I have been doing some exercise every day. It has been a real struggle to keep myself motivated. I think that Danny is excited for me but I don't know if he really thinks I will go through with it. When I told him I asked him to give me motivation when I am feeling down or wanting to be lazy. He has done good so far. Sometimes we both forget. He has been a good supporter.

I talked with my Doctor this week and he said that keeping up the exercise and doing lots of walking is my best bet. He is happy that I have decided to do something and get myself into shape and get healthy. He wanted me to remember that once my 5K is coming and done I need to make a goal what I am going to go next.

I know that I can do this and I am grateful for the support of my family. I am going to a Eating Disorders support group. My first time was this week. I left the meeting knowing that I can do this and that I am not alone. I look forward to continuing with those meetings.

I know that I will not be able to do this without the Lord. I have been renewed that I need to Trust in the Lord and continue to have faith in myself. I would like continued help and support from my family.

I have a plea. I need some good walking shoes and want everyone to be on the look out for some good shoes for me and any sales that may come up. If anyone would like to donate some money to the purchase of these new shoes. Any help would be appreciated. I have also been thinking of other ways I can get motivated. Couple thoughts I have had is a weight loss program or membership to a gym.

My best friend Kristen has recently told me she got a membership to Gold's gym and she loves going every day. She says it helps with stress and keeping fit. We have talked about it every time we talk.

This has been really hard for me to finally post and admit to the world of my addiction. Thank you everyone for all the support you have given me so far.

Family Movie Night

2008-10-11T22:45:00.000-06:00

So last night for our movie night. We watched Night at the Museum. We did not get a chance to see it in the theaters. I was wanting to see it. Danny and the children gave it to me for my birthday.

As we started to watch it. Kara asks. "Mom, Elfee there is an Elfee." I said yes there is an elephant. She then says. "Mommy, what is wrong with the Elfee?" I said It's a statue. Then she says "It's dead mommy." I said yes sweetheart it is dead.

As we continued to watch the movie and the museum comes to life. Kara sees the Elephants and she says "Mommy the Elfee is ok. He is alive." I said yes that is right.

As we watched more of the movie. Christopher every time he would see the T-rex. He would start to growl. Showing us that it was a dinosaur. And when he saw the Lions he did the same. He also loved the monkeys too. And he would say "Eeeeaaaah"

We really enjoyed watching this movie. Danny and I laughed a lot. It was a great movie. When we were done watching, Kara said, "Mommy I want to watch it again."
We certainly had a great time watching this together.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA!

2008-08-28T20:08:00.003-06:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY KARA. SHE PICKED THE PICTURES THAT ARE HERE. THERE IS A HAPPY ELEPHANT, HAPPY HIPPO AND A HAPPY KITTY.

MY BABY GIRL IS NOW 4 YEARS OLD. SHE HAS TOLD ME THAT SHE WANTS TO BE A DOCTOR WHEN SHE GROWS UP. SHE LOVES TO DRAW AND MAKE PICTURES OF MOMMY, DADDY, KARA AND CHRISTOPHER.

KARA IS TELLING ME A STORY WHILE I WRITE THIS BLOG. HER STORY IS MOMMY IS SICK AND KARA GROWS UP TO BE A DOCTOR AND HELPS MOMMY GET BETTER AND GIVES HER A SHOT. THE END.

I LOVE YOU MY SWEET GIRL. YOU ARE GROWING UP TO FAST.

The Incredible Hulk

2008-08-23T14:00:00.002-06:00

Today Danny, Kara and Christopher and I went down to Far West Comics for the 1 year anniversary. We were able to see Lou Ferrigno as there special guest. I was able to shake his hand. And I got the picture with him. When we were leaving he said "I hope you enjoy the rest of your day."

It was really fun to be there and to have a chance to see Lou Ferrigno. As most people know the Incredible Hulk has been one of my favorites since I was little. I had Hulk toys and pajamas. Now that I am older I have lots of the hulk episodes on DVD and some on VHS. I have Hulk movies and comics. I even have a Hulk Lava Lamp.

The current Hulk movie was great. I really enjoyed watching different sides of the hulk that they have shown.

I am so excited that I had the great opportunity to see Lou Ferrigno. One I will always remember.

Birthday Party for Christopher

2008-07-19T20:01:00.001-06:00

I am now 2 years old. I had so much fun at my party. We ate cake and ice cream and had root beer floats. So yummy. I had family from both Mommy and Danny's side. I played at the park and opened lots of presents. Thank you to all my family for the wonderful presents I love them and play with them all and will wear the clothes soon.

Happy Birthday Christopher!

2008-07-19T18:00:00.004-06:00

On Christopher's Birthday we decided to visit the Zoo in the morning. Christopher has been so excited about animals we thought it would be fun.

MaMa and Baby Giraffe were fun to watch eating. They did go outside and watched them for a while. Kara especially loved the Baby.

Statue of the Tigers was fun to sit on. Kara did say that it was a little hot. Christopher growled when he saw the Tiger. He really enjoyed watching him walk back and forth.

Well as Gorilla's are Daddy's favorite we watched the gorilla's sleep. Danny got lots of pictures of the Silverback's Hands and Feet close up. Kara and Christopher loved sitting on the ledge and watch the Mommy Gorilla trying to get comfortable.

Kara's favorite is the Elephant's they had a presentation and talked about what they do to take care of the Elephant's Kara loved watching them. She also sat on the elephant and it made noise for her.

The White Alligator was very fun. He wasn't doing much when we saw it. So just pictures of it sleeping was all we got.

Kara and Christopher thought that this was the lemur on Zoobomafoo. One of there favorite shows. So very excited when they saw the lemur.

We had a lot of fun seeing all the animals and enjoying the fun. We also took a ride an the Train and we told the people it was Christopher's birthday and they announced it before we took the ride. It was really fun.

They grow up too fast

2008-07-13T23:14:00.003-06:00

How they grow up too fast. I remember this like it was just yesterday. Noah and Kara on Christmas 2004.

Kara in 2006. I just can't believe how they grow up and become so wonderful. Kara said her first prayer in Primary today. She was so big and Danny said she did great. She loves church and primary so much. She looks forward to it each week.

Christopher when he was a day old in 2006.

He then grows up and is now bigger. This is in 2007 just after he turned a year. He will be 2 yrs old on Saturday and I am just amazed how he has grown up and is saying so many more words.

I am thankful for my children. How they put a smile on my face and help me through each day. I am thankful for their spirits and the love I feel from them. I am thankful that they chose me to be their mother. They help me each day to be closer to the lord and strive to be better each day.

HAPPY JULY 4TH TO ALL!

2008-07-04T15:30:00.002-06:00

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY! OUR DAY OF INDEPENDENCE.

This nation will remain the land of the free only so long as it is the home of the brave. ~Elmer Davis

Freedom's natal day is here.
Fire the guns and shout for freedom,
See the flag above unfurled!
Hail the stars and stripes forever,
Dearest flag in all the world.
~Florence A. Jones

I AM THANKFUL FOR OUR INDEPENDENCE. I AM THANKFUL FOR ALL THOSE SOLDIERS FIGHTING FOR OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS TO HAVE THAT SAME FREEDOM.

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE SERVED OR ARE SERVING IN THE MILITARY. I PRAY FOR YOU ALL.

MOTHER'S

2008-05-11T07:22:00.001-06:00

The mother's I know are wonderful.

My own mom who while growing up we did not get along well. I wanted to be a bad child and she wanted to help me in any way she could. Now that I am Mom I know how she feels. She now is asking to help and I try to accept the help when ever I can. I feel that my relationship with my Mom is better now than it ever has been. When ever I am home on a Thursday she will stop by and visit with us. I looked forward to the visit each week. Now that I am working I miss those visits.

My Mother in law has been a wonderful help and source in my life. She has taken me in as one of her own. We are helping her by having her for dinner each week. So she can have the time and visits she wishes to have with her children. She enjoys my yummy food and visits with Danny and I and she loves playing with the children. She has helped me through some tough times I've had with Danny and has always been there for me.

My 2nd Mom she came into my life only a couple of years ago, when my Dad re-married. She is a wonderful mom and help to me. She has been there to help when I could not find help anywhere else. She enjoys see us and the children. She has a big heart and is always finding ways to help or give us her love.

My Grandma Sonntag she has been such a strength to me. She is always happy and loving to everyone. I have never heard her say an unkind thing about anyone. When grandpa died I knew it was hard for her but she did not show her sadness when around her family. I remember a time just after and I came to visit while family was away and we did not want to leave her alone. I made chicken enchiladas and we watched Singing in the rain. She had never seen that before and she just loved it. I loved having that time with her and enjoying her presence.

My Grandma Shepard I always loved go to grandma's when I was young she always had such good food and I loved playing with her toys. She always loves having her family around to visit with. I remember one time when I had to stay at her house she let me sleep in her bed. She wanted to make it as comfortable as possible so she let me listen to classical music to help me sleep. I remember always enjoying that time with her. She has showed me such strength in all she does. She has worked so hard in all she has done. And has helped me see that we have to work to enjoy life and the blessings of the gospel.

Thank you to all the Mom's out there. I could go on forever about the mother's I know. These are the ones I think about when mother's day comes. All my sister's are mother's and I have learned so much from them as well. I would be writing a novel.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL!

HAPPY HUBCAP DAY!!

2008-05-01T19:06:00.000-06:00

A tradition that Kristen, Mary, Helen and I started years ago. Today is Happy Hubcap Day! Since I don't stop and collect hubcaps much any more. I am sending all who looks at this note a Happy Hubcap Day Message.

HAVE A FABULOUS HAPPY HUBCAP DAY AND ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS OF LIFE.

Happy Birthday NOAH!

2008-04-13T23:12:00.000-06:00

So Noah is now 4. And so big. We had so much fun at his birthday parties. Kara and Christopher enjoyed the pin the bat symbol on Batman at My Mom's. They had fun playing with Noah and cousins at Dad's and jumping on the trampoline. Here are some pictures we took. Enjoy.

We love you NOAH!

Thankful Sunday 4-6-08

2008-04-06T20:13:00.008-06:00

For General Conference.
There were so many talks that just gave me a confirming spirit of the gospel. I know that it is true. Pres. Monson is the prophet today. The solemn assembly was so powerful. It brought the spirit so close.

For my family.
They bring me joy and happiness. Everyday I come home from work they all get so excited to see me and give me hugs and kisses.

Kara
For her beautiful smile and the joy she brings me each day. She is growing so fast and I love every minute I spend with her. She is having success with potty training. I am so proud of her and the success she has had.

Christopher
For his joy and love he shows to me each day. How he knows when we need a hug. He is growing so big and doing so well with his weight. He says new words every day. Today he said Dorey(Dorothy) Elmo's fish, Sippy, Food, Sister, Kara, Mommy, Batman, and Superman. He is growing too fast.

Children in a basket.
I don't think I need to say anymore. They are so cute in the basket.

Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull

2008-04-01T17:10:00.003-06:00

So I am so excited about this movie. I can't wait to see it. You have to go to the site and see the new teaser trailer. It looks so awesome.

http://www.IndianaJones.com/site/?deeplink=videos/2/v30

FIVE

2008-04-01T14:49:00.002-06:00

5 years ago I was ... moving out of my sister's basement to live with an old man to help him out. Working at a comic book store and cell phone sales job to try and stay afloat.

5 months ago I was ... just found out that I was being laid off from my job.

5 hours ago I was ... just took Kara to school. Running errands with Christopher and talking to my sister Amy on the phone.

5 minutes ago I was ... reading email.

5 things on my 'to do' list today: Wash and put gas in the car, clean my front room and kitchen. Finish the dishes.

5 recent pieces of mail I've received: Bills, Ads for grocery store, pre-approved credit offer.

5 things I would do if I became a billionaire: Pay off Danny student loans, pay off all our debt, pay off the car, buy a house, Help my family with some things they need.

5 of my bad habits: biting my nails when I'm nervous, eating when I'm upset, piling clothes on the futon, cleaning my house, putting off anything that I don't want to do.

5 good memories: Going on my mission to Ireland, Seeing Goofy in Disneyland when I was young, Seeing Christopher for the first time. Holding Kara after she was born, Kissing Danny for the first time.(I broke my bed that night I was so happy)

5 films I watch over and over again: Spiceworld, Indiana Jones Trilogy, Star Wars movies, Never been kissed and Ever After

5 places I've lived: My parents house, Places in Ireland, Apt. with Helen and Mary, My sister's basement, my Apt in the Avenues.

5 songs I love: Eye of the tiger, Pretty Vegas, Love today, Big girl you are beautiful, Grace Kelly.(Last 3 are all by Mika)

5 jobs I've had: Cust. Service/Telemarketing phone job, Signer, Sales at a trade show selling massage pillows, Receptionist many places but my favorite was at a Disabled care center, worked retail as a cashier and worked in the deli

5 things most people don't know about me: My huge desire to lose weight, really hate crunchy snow, mmmm, can't think of any more.

5 things in my virtual shopping bags: Digital Camera, New Mac computer, ipod nano, camcorder, new clothes for work.

5 books I love to death: Tennis Shoes series by Chris Heimerdinger, Gable books by Anita Stansfield, Believing Christ, Following Christ, and Hope

5 things that are out of place around my house: DVD still sitting in our kitchen from our flood, laundry on the futon, children's books all over Kara/CK's room, pile of clothes that don't fit me on my bedroom floor.

5 films I want to see: Indiana Jones IV, Batman the dark knight, Incredible Hulk, I know their are others but I can't think.

5 things I love to eat: Ice cream, carmel, chocolate, cereal with milk, and mashed potatoes, chicken with cream of mushroom soup.

5 destinations I'm dying to see: Ireland, England, Hawaii, Florida, and to take Danny to a Comic Con Convention

5 scents I love: chocolate chip cookies, clean babies, Danny's clean hair, fresh smell after it rains, baking bread.

5 people (who are not blood relations or in-laws) who have had a positive impact on my life: Kristen W., Mary G., Rowlie S., Mrs. Wight, and Wini B.

My true color

2008-03-18T21:50:00.001-06:00

What's Your True Color?

My Result: Green

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

What are you?
http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=colorogt&c=50652

Christopher's Favorite things

2008-03-18T18:21:00.004-06:00

Superman my favorite. I'm Superboy

I like to play with toy cars. Drive, Drive

My action figures go with me everywhere. Suupp. Baman.

MaMa dog Wooooo! Wooooo! MMMMMM WWWoooooo!

Wooooo! Flll Shhhhh!

Here are Christopher's Favorite things. I hope you enjoy!

Kara's favorite things

2008-03-18T18:02:00.002-06:00

Elephants have long trunks. They say AAArrrrroooooo!!

Supergirl is in the sky. I am supergirl!

Peep is rocking. He lives in a can. Peep gets in his can to sleep.

I love Mickey!! He likes to get into his house and say Mickey Mouse Clubhouse!!

I wake up everyday with my favorite kitty. I want a kitty.

Here are all the things that Kara likes and what she has to say about them. Enjoy!

Games

2008-03-17T22:30:00.000-06:00

So I have been itching to play a game lately. In Feb. at my Dad's house we played mexican train dominoes and I want to play again. It was so fun. And then Sunday we played Apples to Apples at my Mom's house. I miss playing games all the time. Well I have to say that my all around favorite game to Phase 10. Amy and I use to play every Sunday after dinner. And sometime we would play for jelly beans. Not just any jelly beans. They were the Yucky flavor Jelly Belly's and it was a joke to see who would win them. And then we would save them for our next week game. That was so fun.

Happy St. Patrick's Day

2008-03-17T06:48:00.000-06:00

I MISS THE GREEN OF IRELAND. REMEMBERING THE WONDERFUL LAND. I MISS THE PEOPLE. I AM THANKFUL FOR THE TIME I HAD TO SPEND THERE. I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY.

ERIN GO BRAUGH! IRELAND FOREVER!!

SPEND THE DAY REMEMBERING ALL THE FUN MEMORIES YOU HAVE OF WHAT YOU'VE DONE ON ST. PATRICK'S DAY GROWING UP.

MAKE SURE YOU ARE WEARING GREEN ALL DAY LONG I MAY FIND OUT AND PINCH YOU! EVEN IN THE SHOWER!! HEE HEE!!

Our Loving Prophet

2008-01-30T16:38:00.000-07:00

Today I wanted to remember the prophet Gordon B. Hinckley. He was a wonderful prophet and president of the church. When I found out Monday morning that he had passed away I shed a tear for him. He was a wonderful teacher. The many lives he touched. He will surely be missed by many. He touched my life. My testimony grew so much from his. Thank you President Hinckley for all you did for the church. For bringing us into a bigger and better state. I will always stay close to the Lord. For that is what you always taught.
See you soon our good friend and prophet.

Feeling Left Out

2008-01-02T23:06:00.000-07:00

Ok so I might just be sulking in my own sadness. But I am feeling left out that I have not see my wonderful niece Sofia. All the wonderful things I have heard are making me so anxious to see her. Well the reason I have not is because. I've been sick. Well and now Danny and Kara are sick as well. I just feel she will be 1 before I see her. She is such a beautiful baby and I can't wait to hold her and give her the Aunt Baba Love that she will so deserve.
I love you Sofia, Lou, Ten and Noah. Soon I know it will be Soon.

My family

2007-12-25T22:33:00.000-07:00

Christopher is my little bear. He makes me laugh. And I love when he gives me hugs and kisses. He is working hard to talk more. And is learning more things everyday. He enjoys books, superman, cars, and any toy that makes noise.

Danny is the love of my life. He makes me smile everyday. I love to watch him play with the children. He works hard and I appreciate all that he does. He enjoys his comics and action figures. And he loves to see me happy. He is a wonderful husband.

Kara is one girl that makes me smile. No matter how much is acts like me I love her so much. Watching her grow is amazing. The wonderful things she does. She loves school. She loves reading books, painting, putting puzzles together, and drawing. She has loved the snow. She loves to make a snowman.

Merry Christmas

2007-12-25T21:28:00.000-07:00

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

Today was a great day. I had a wonderful day. Being with family and spending time with my children watching them be so excited for Christmas.

Kara was more aware of Christmas this year. We asked her what she wanted for Christmas. And for a while she wouldn't tell us and then after she had watched a few Christmas shows we asked her again. And she said. "I want Santa to bring me a Teddy Bear."
So that is what we got her. She was so excited. Then when we left to go to Grammy and Grandpa Saxton's she got really upset because she left her Teddy Bear home. So when we got home I was getting her ready for bed and I noticed her Teddy Bear on the floor so I said "Kara, I found your Teddy Bear." She got so excited she gave it a big hug and said Teddy bear. Thank you mommy.

Christopher was so cute today. He was very loving today. This morning he was so excited with his presents he kept giving me hugs. Then we we were at Grammy Saxton's he learned how to go down the stairs on his bum. And every time he would do it he would run over to Grammy and then give her a great big hug and in his own way say hooray. Then when we were at Grandma Jeanne's he kept going over and giving her hugs too. He was very loving with Nik as well. He just had a lot of love to give to everyone today. When we got home tonight he was so tired. He fell asleep at 6:30pm and has slept since. Very tired boy.

Well our Christmas was great and we enjoyed being with everyone. Tonight we watched The Forgotton Carols and just reminded me how important this day was to Jesus Christ. And how remembering why we are here on this earth. To remember that Christ was born on this day. That is the true meaning of Christmas. Always remember.

2007-11-13T22:39:00.000-07:00

My Beautiful Kara. Ok so a funny story to tell.

Last Thursday, I had just picked Kara up from school. She was in a really good mood. And excited to be going home. We got in the car. She had earlier that day when going to school brought out a small notepad and pencil to draw. She quickly found it when we were going home. As soon as I got in she asked. "Mommy, what's your problem?" I started to laugh and said well my back is hurting. She then said "Mommy, what's Danny's problem?" I said well he is tired. She then said " What's Christopher's problem?" I said he needs his bottle. By then we were home. As I got her out of the car she said. "Mommy, your back hurt?" I said yes. She said, Kiss it better? I said Yes, thank you.

I was so amazed at how concerned she was for my back. And I thought it hilarous that she had asked me the question in the first place.

That's my supergirl!

Simple Interview

2007-11-13T22:11:00.000-07:00

Ok so Lou did this on her blog so I am stealing it.

What are you really good at? Making my Children smile. Kara and Christopher love it when I play with them and make them laugh or smile.

What is your favorite Thanksgiving Food? Mashed Potatoes w/gravy and a big piece of dark meat turkey. Very yummy I must say. I really like Yam with Apples too.

If you could change places with anyone, living or dead, for one day, who would it be? This is hard. Right now in my life. It would have to be the person who makes the decison on who will win the publishers clearing house grand prize of a million dollars. So I could win it and be financial stable.

Would you rather be a little smarter or a little sexier? Well since I am neither I would have to say smarter. I struggled so much in school. It was hard. I even have trouble now. More than most people think.

What are you most proud of? Well there are a couple of things. Going on a mission to Ireland. Best thing I ever did. And then Getting married to my wonderful husband Danny. He brings me so much joy. I am so grateful I have him in my life.

Something on my mind lately is . . .money. What else do I need to say. Well I just don't want to write about it.

Before I die, I'd like to . . .visit Ireland again. To see my friend Ava and to be in the second place I love so much. I miss it everyday.

I've Been Tagged

2007-10-25T22:03:00.000-06:00

You've been tagged!
A. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.
B. Each player lists 6 facts/habits about themselves.
C. At the end of the post, the player then tags 6 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

Here it goes:

1. Right now my life is upside down. I am living my life for my family. I don't have a whole lot of time for myself. I wish I could take a nap everyday.

2. The sink in our kitchen was clogged and has not been in use since Monday. The plumber finally came tonight at 9pm. It's fixed now. Now that it is fixed I have a leak in my front room. Don't know where it's coming from.

3. My work is down sizing again. They are finally moving to our new office in 2 wks.

4. My hair is starting to get too long right now. It's driving me crazy.

5. I love to paint. I just don't have enough time to do it. I wish I had more.

6. My favorite tv shows right now that I watch weekly is Stargate Atlantis, Smallville, Heroes, Las Vegas and Law and Order:SVU

Okay so now I tag, Nik, Polli, and Jill

ABOUT ME

2007-10-23T21:33:00.000-06:00

ABOUT ME

1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME? Audrey Lynn Saxton

2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Navy Blue

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Nothing

4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 4181

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Nutri-grain Bar

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Cobalt Blue

7. WHERE DO YOU PLAN ON GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON? The Cabin..did that

8. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Cold and the moon is out.

9. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Dad

10. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? Hair

11. DO YOU ENJOY YOUR JOB? Yes, cuz I can work from home

12. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Tired and good mood

13. DO YOU THINK THIS IS A CURSED NUMBER? Nope it's just another number.

14. FAVORITE DRINK? Diet Coke the Elixir of life.

15. HOW DO YOU EAT AN OREO? Whole thing dunked in milk

16. FAVORITE SPORTS? Womens Basketball or Soccer

17. FAVORITE COLOR? Blue

18. EYE COLOR? Hazel

19. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope

20. SIBLINGS? 3 sisters and 1 brother

21. FAVORITE MONTH ? September, the beginning of fall and my birthday.

22. FAVORITE FOOD? Mashed potatoes with Chicken and Cream of mushroom soup. mmmm

23. LAST MOVIE YoU WATCHED? Work and the Glory III

24. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? Christmas.

25. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? I can't I'm married.

26. DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING MOVIES BETTER? Happy Ending. Don't want night mares with the scary.

27. SUMMER OR WINTER? Neither, Fall is the best season.

28. HUGS OR KISSES? Kisses and Hugs especially from my husband or children.

29. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Relationships

30. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Chocolate

31. TAG YOUR FRIENDS? Yes, I tag Lou, Amy, and Polli

32. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Hulk Smash

33. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Clue and Made in Ireland (which I would like to play soon, Does someone want to play?)

34. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? Check email and played on the computer.

35. FAVORITE SMELLS? Bread baking in the oven, Freshly showered husband or children.

36. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL? Rotten Egg smell, Cigarette Smoke, Hippy perfume.

37. FAVORITE SOUND? Guitar playing

38. LEAST FAVORITE SOUND? Crunchy snow.

39. FUTURE CHILD'S/PET'S NAME? Child:Wade Nathan Pet:Boothby or Binksy

40. WHAT WAS THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN TO YOU THIS WEEK? I got Kara's school pictures.

41. YOUR FAVORITE SUPERHERO? Incredible Hulk and Superman

I hope you enjoyed this.

Grateful Sunday 10/14/2007

2007-10-14T15:09:00.000-06:00

Well this has been a week in coming. Last Saturday I was going to write a grateful sunday blog and well here it is.

DREAMS:
Well I am grateful for those fun dreams that come up once in a while. This one is a dream I wish to come true. But I fear it never will. I was staying at a hotel and enjoying myself. And there was a murder committed. I was worried because I knew some people that were involved. As I was talking to them. Angela Lansbury walked in and started talking to one of my friends. I went over and started to talk to her. She asked what had happened. My friend and I told her. As the dream progressed. It was like I was in an episode of Murder, she wrote. Which is one of my favorite shows. At this point I was down in the diner eating some dinner and Angela came in and sat by me and we talked . She was asking me about the murder. And then she had the trigger that always helped her to solve the case. She asked if I could help I was really excited. She solved the case. Later that night I went to her room to talk with her it was really great to talk to her and to experience something so fun.
I know that some dreams never come true. But I am grateful that we can enjoy dreams that we wish were real.

SAVIOR
I am so grateful for my savior Jesus Christ. He has done so much for me. I am so grateful that he loves each of us so much. He made the sacrifice necessary to allow us a way home to our Heavenly Father. I know he lives. I know that he has comforted me in my many times of trial. He gives me strength everyday.

Weight

2007-10-01T22:42:00.001-06:00

Yeah! I am excited and happy with myself. I've lost 10 pounds. I've been wondering for a week now. I had my Wic appt. and I thought I will check my weight. And Yeah for me!
My goal is to work at making small goals that I know I can accomplish. So right now my first small goal is to get to my weight before Christopher was born. My ultimate goal is to lose 100 pounds. And I know that as I work on my small goals I will get there.

So I am so excited. That the pig is smiling for me. I thought of you Boog! Silly pig for you my A sister.

Thankful for on Sun. 9/23/07

2007-09-23T19:28:00.000-06:00

Ok so I am going to steal Lou's idea just for one Sunday.
By the way Kara picked the picture.

Things I am thankful for this Sunday

My Temple Date:
Yesterday Danny and I went to the temple for my birthday. I told him that was the only thing I wanted. I haven't been to the temple for a while and my recommend was not renewed till this week. Just sitting in the temple and feeling the spirit was so refreshing. Being there and just being away from the world and not have a care. It was so nice. Having time with Danny and to renew our bond was nice. Just being with him and to snuggle is the best.

Books and games:
I know this may sound silly. But reading books and playing games is so relaxing for me. I am reading Eldest the sequel to Eragon and enjoying it. It is so fun to read about the characters and to be so engulfed in the story. I love to put myself in the story as if I am watching as a ghost.
I have also been playing uno, skipbo, uno freefall, brain age, star wars II, and Superman on my nintendo ds. I stay up and work til about 11 pm and when I go to bed most of the time I am tired but can't sleep. So I play one of my games. I am then ready to sleep. I have always enjoyed playing games and love to do so when I have people to play. When I was still living at home before I got married Amy and I would play uno on most every Sunday afternoon. Some time we would trade candy to whom ever won. I would always get the bag of what we called the yucky jelly beans. They were the ones no one wanted to eat. I miss that.

Life:
I am grateful to be alive. I struggle everyday with the thought that because of my weight, I could die earlier than I wish. And to miss my children growing up. I struggle everyday with losing weight as well. Having the power to do it and to keep doing it.

Wish I was here

2007-09-19T18:53:00.000-06:00

Ok so I wish I was here. I am not wanting to deal with my life right now. Everything is coming down on me. I feel as though I am being suffocated.

I only wish at this moment that I was a dolphin free to swim the open water. Having one of those bad days. But it feels as though it is a bad day turned into my life.
I thank Heavenly Father that I have the gospel, my children, and reading to get me happiness.

Random Information

2007-09-12T22:10:00.000-06:00

Random Information.

1. What is your favorite past time?
ANSWER: Checking Email and Blogs, My new past time is Painting, I love and enjoy.

2. What is a goal you have that you haven't accomplished but want to?
ANSWER: Losing weight.

3. If there was a place you could go on vacation where would it be?
ANSWER: Ireland, to visit Ava. I realized this week how much I miss her.

4. If there was something you have learned and wanted to get better at it. What would it be?
ANSWER: Well Guitar first I am so rusty. Second painting, learn different styles.

Well I hope you enjoy. I had fun thinking these up. Now I want to know more about those out there reading this.

Tag: Lou, Polli, Danny, Amy, Nik and Jill hope to hear about it.

Kara is a Big Girl now!

2007-09-12T21:56:00.000-06:00

I am so excited I wanted everyone to know. I have been working really hard with Kara the past couple of days on Potty Training. We watched a movie about it and then the next couple of days we have been having her sit on her little potty. Since she won't sit on the toilet yet. She has had a couple of accidents and she then would ask for a diaper after. So I've been having a hard time with it but tried to be strong for her. Well tonight I asked her if she wanted to sit on the potty and she said yes. We went in there and her Care Bear was still sitting in it so I told her that Care Bear was done going potty and it was her turn to sit on it. She had been sitting on it for about 5 minutes. We brushed her teeth and were getting Christopher's teeth ready to brush and
YEAH! she went potty in her toilet. We had a big party and she was so excited. I helped her clean up and she was so excited that she had gone potty in her toilet.
As a Mother I was so excited to see her grow. My patience paid off. I know that there is alot ahead in helping her and I know that there will be accidents. But I will work through each one. She has taken her 1st big step. And I am ready for what ahead. YEAH!

Birthdays and School

2007-09-04T20:03:00.000-06:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA!
We celebrated Kara's birthday last week. She was really excited. She would tell us that she was 2 and now she is 3 and would show us with her hand. I did get her to say HAPPY CAKE!! But she would mainly say Happy birthday to me. On her birthday we gave her a Harmonica and a Care Bear. She was really excited about the Harmonica. She played it the rest of the night and even slept with it. She has always had a great interest about musical instruments.
We then had a party for her the next night. We went to Riverside park and she wanted a mickey mouse cake and had ice cream. She had Aaron, Katrina, Emma, Leah, Sissy, Valerie, Nik and Lena there. She enjoyed the music and had lots of fun playing at the park.
Well Kara wanted to help me with this blog so the pictures are of things she wants on here.

Ok another big event happened for Kara she started Preschool today. I was able to get her into the 3yr old Preschool at our local elementary. She was very excited. When we got to the school she was excited to see other children there for school too. When I took her into her class room she was excited to be there. They were going to start story time and she was excited to sit on the paper where her name was. When I went to pick her up she did not want to leave. So I know she really enjoyed herself.
Kara wants me to write "Happy Birthday to me to me to you."

Father Fish

2007-07-24T19:31:00.001-06:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHER !!

My Dad is one great guy. Growing up I felt closer to him than anyone. He taught me to be a great person. He guided me when I would fall away. I am grateful I have such a wonderful dad. I always loved going to the dump with him when I was little. It only because it was just the two of us. I loved fishing with him too. Even though we hardly ever caught anything.
My favorite memory I have of my dad growing up is. When I was in young women they were have a Daddy/Daughter date dance. My dad had just had cancer surgery and was recovering. I was sad he was hurting and sad that I may not go. We had to dress up for the dance. So with what little energy dad had he put on his jogging suit and I dressed up as a punk rocker. And he took me to the dance. I am so grateful to my dad for doing that and taking me. I will always cherish the memory.
Now that I am a mom and have children. I am grateful to Dad for being a great Papa. My children love to come see him. I know that Dad loves to be with them too.
I love you Dad and hope your birthday was a fabulous one. XOXOXO

First Step

2007-07-12T22:19:00.001-06:00

My Sweet Little Bear took his First step independently. He was just hanging out with me and wanted to see what Kara was doing over on the futon. He stood up and took 4 steps to the futon. I just freeked out and got so excited. Gave him a big hug and kiss. Told him he was a big boy. He got really happy and Kara cheered with me. We then rushed in and told Daddy what he had done. He then throughout the day and he walked some more.

I am happy to report that my doctor said the Christopher is now growing into himself very nicely. When we took him for his 9 month appt. He was 14lbs 5oz. at that point he was in 0% for his age and weight. Last month we visited the nutrition clinic at Primary Childrens Hospital. We were given some great ways to help gain the weight. We also figured out that he has Reflux so he is taking medicine for that. Even though I have been Breastfeeding him exclusively. We realized that he was not getting enough so we are now supplementing with formula. I am happy to say that at his appt. yesterday he is now 18lbs. 6oz. My doctor is so happy to see the large weight gain. And I am happy to say that my Featherboy as Amy calls him is growing.

Just a little note on Kara too. Today Danny and Kara were looking at some of Danny's Transformers and they were talking about them and Kara came out and said "Oh that amazing" Danny was just amazed that she knew that. It was a fun moment for them.

Diet Coke

2007-07-10T22:00:00.000-06:00

Happy Birthday to DIET COKE! It is the Elixer of life. The one great taste. 25 years we have enjoyed you. And will enjoy you for another 25 yrs.

Music

2007-06-30T22:55:00.000-06:00

So I have been on a Music obsession the last week. I have always listened to music and I love it. But I just started to crave for more music. Something I can listen to while I am working. I have a few that are my favorites right now. Most of you know that I went through an "Eye of the Tiger" phase. Well I go through phases with any music all the time. Well my Obsession right now is Mika-Life in Cartoon Motion. His music is so great and inspiring. The songs I love the most are Grace Kelly, Love Today, Lollipop, Big Girl (you are beautiful). His music reminds me of a ABBA, BeeGees, Rock all smashed into one. And I love it. My other songs that I am going through a phase with are Sexyback-Justin Timberlake and Candyman-Christina Aguliera. For the past month or so I will go onto the internet on YouTube and I would listen to these songs. Well thanks to my brother I have Mika's cd now and so I can listen to it any time. "Everybodys gonna love today.......any way you want to any way you got to Love Love me, Love Love me. I love that part. Well music is wonderful and makes me so happy. Enjoy your day and listen to one of your favorite songs today. :)

Spiderman 3

2007-05-05T22:33:00.000-06:00

Well last night Danny and I went with my work to see Spiderman 3. I have been really excited about this movie for quite some time. I have always like spiderman and knew with this movie that I would really enjoy it.
There are 3 different villians that they had in this movie. There is Venom, The new goblin, and Sandman. I was talking to a friend about it and I had hoped that with 3 villians that the movie would be overload. And that the story wouldn't work. Like they were trying to cram to much into one movie. Well not true. The story lines were great. The movie was steady on the story line.

Venom is Satan in real life. He takes over your body and makes you forget what is important. He feeds off of your hate and anger. He is very selfish and all he does is for the good of him or yourself. Showing how the venom symbiote worked and the struggle Peter went through to see what his actions were doing. Made me think of real life and the struggles we go through everyday. To fight the venoms we have and to conquer them.

I thought that the story about Harry and him being the new goblin. Turns out to be really awesome. The scenes that they have with them in battle are great. I really enjoyed watching those battle scenes.

Sandman just had a rough time. His story is great. To watch when they showed how he turned into the sandman. I my special effects have come a long way. It was so cool. To watch each speck of sand and how they put it together. It was so amazing.

Well I loved this movie so much I wanted to post it so you all could read and get excited to go see it. I didn't want to reveal any details to those who have not seen it yet. But wanted you to be excited about seeing it as I was. I am grateful to my work for letting us see it for FREE!!
Go see it and you won't be disappointed.

To be continued...

2007-04-19T08:32:00.000-06:00

I don't know where to start. I have something I need to do. I want to do it. But I am scared. I am afraid of failing. But I need to do it for me and for my children. I've made the first step and now I just need to go for it. I have to remember that if I do fail I need to pick up and try again. Do I want support or will that push me away? People have told me that I will get the support. But I don't want it to be crazy. Can I do this on my own? Well all I can to is start and try.

Easter

2007-04-12T19:58:00.000-06:00

Well this Easter was quite fun. We did a lot of things and enjoyed our day. Church was always good. Kara especially loves going to nursery. She is always ready and willing to get ready for church. When we came home we decided to watch a Jesus Christ related movie to think of the real meaning of Easter. My Dad had given us "The Testaments" DVD the night before so we put that in and watched that. It was fun to here my sister Amy high voice in that movie. We then left to make our way to my Mom's for dinner. We made 2 stops before. We saw Grandma Shepard she enjoyed seeing the children. She was so happy we stopped in even if it was only for 10 minutes. We then left and saw Grandma Sonntag she was happy to see us as well. She was surprised to have us there. We stayed 10 minutes there too. But the visit was good for being so short. We then made it to my Mom's for Dinner. We had smoked beef ribs, parmesan potato wedges, and candied carrots. And Grandma Sonntag's famous jello. The food was really good. the ribs had a different taste being smoked but I enjoyed it. After dinner we took these cute pictures of the children. I didn't have a single picture of my children together by themselves. After that we then traveled to see Danny's parents. Mom and Dad Saxton were happy to see the children. After that we finally made it home after nine. It was a wonderful Easter.

Christopher is my cute little bear. That is his nickname. He brings me so much joy and happiness. He got his first tooth on April 5-6th. So he has been a bit of a grouch. When we were shopping for Easter stuff Saturday. I saw this cute outfit and we decided to get it for him. It has a lion on it and says "King of the Jungle". Danny's favorite animal is a lion. So we were very excited. He looks so cute with the hat and cargo pants. I love cargo pants. So my boy will probably have many of them.

Kara is my cute snuggle bear. That is her nickname. Getting her easter dress was loads of fun. I wanted her to pick it out and I wanted it to be what she would be excited about wearing. We were in the store they had 3 dresses in her size so I got all of them out and asked her what one she wanted. We had it down to 2 different ones. One was green and the other pink. I asked her what one she wanted and she picked the pink one. We then go shoes. We had 2 different ones there to one with colorful flowers or one with one white flower. Well she got the colorful flowers one. She even got new tights. She was so excited about her dress and shoes when we got home that night she wanted to wear them right then. I told her tomorrow for church. Well first thing she asked me when she woke up was "Mama, Pretty dress On." Since Easter she has asked to wear it 2 more times I am so glad that she has a pretty dress that she like so much. She loves the shoes too. She has worn those around the house almost every day. And then finds them and wants to put them on again.

I love my children so much they are my biggest joy in life. They bring so much happiness to me.

5 Randoms...

2007-04-11T22:53:00.000-06:00

5 Things in my fridge:

~Gravy with onions

~5 doz. eggs

~So much salad

~Diet Coke

~So much Cheese

5 Things in my closet:

~Clothes that don't fit me that I hope to fit into some day.

~Wall pictures that I hope to hang some day.

~Games that I hope to play some day.

~Electronic cords and left over cables that we may use some day.

~My guitar that I will play some day.

5 Things in my purse:

~cell phone

~word search

~wallet

~diapers and wipes

~bottle of water

5 Things in my car:

~lots of dirt and rocks

~garbage

~Car Seats

~newpaper bags

~tire jack

5 Things on my Tivo/DVR:
(Don't have it- but if I did...)

~Smallville

~Crossing Jordan

~Heros

~Law and Order: SVU

~Ghost Whisperer

Tag: Lou, Nik, Lena