Things that make me happy

I needed to be reminded of what blessings I have and what makes me happy. So here it is.


Seeing my family every day makes me smile and happy. When I come home from work I see my family and the kids come running to see me and I am so happy to home.


Jesus Christ and the gospel. I know help me get through the trials of life. I realized that this last couple weeks how important staying close to the Lord is. I have always loved this picture. I imagine myself sitting next to Jesus and us looking out and talking.


Kittens and Cats are such wonderful creatures. I can't resist a kitten. I love to hold them. I also love when they will sit with you and let you pet them. I always loved when any of the cats we have owed. Licked me. I always knew they loved me.


I've always loved cycling. I hope that I can get a nice bike. It was one thing that helps me get away from life for a while.


Love bluebells because they are blue my favorite color. The look like bells.


Stargate Atlantis. I love this show. It has great action and the actor and actress' are great. I love watching the episodes over and over.

New Phone

WoooHooo!!! Yipee!! YeeHaa!!

I am getting me new phone this week. I am so excited. When we got our tax refund I was thinking that we had other things that we would need to use it for and so I am feeling sad that I could not get my new phone. I decided to check the Sprint website anyway. It was FREE!!! Yeah I am so excited I will have my new phone hopefully by Friday.

Oh I can't wait. I am a gitty school girl.

The 5K is here.

This is one of the reasons I am doing this.

I am just sitting here eating my breakfast and I am nervous. I wanted to have some eggs for breakfast for some protein. But there was none left. So I figured something else out. I am really excited about today. I have my whole family supporting me all in what they can do. My Dad and Bonus Mom and all my Bonus Brothers and Sisters do this every year. I am excited to see them. Lena, Emilee and my best friend Kristen are going to walk with me. I want to thank my therapist for believing in me. I have learned so many amazing things from her. She has showed me that I am more than I think I am. She helped me see that I can't do anything with out the Lord help. Well Amy, Nik and My Mom are going to be at the finish line. Lou has been busy with moving and getting her new place ready with Emilee. I am so grateful that I have such a great family that love me. I realized that my support was there and just wasn't seeing it. Thank you everyone for believing in me. My support group I go to on Thursday nights all the people I see there are supporting me. Sister Pederson one of the missionaries is a wonderful lady and she told me that she would be thinking of me today. This is a small step toward my ultimate goal. Now that this time is here I have to start thinking of my next goal to keep me going. Well must finish getting ready. Kristen will be here soon.

Obsession

These are two reasons I get up every day and I commit to myself that I am going to continue my recovery from my food addiction.

Tonight I finally got the children to bed and I was going to go to bed myself and then I thought. I better check my Farm on Facebook so none of my crops go bad and lose money. I realized that I am obsessed with Farm Town on Facebook. The kids love helping me and they tell me what to plant. The love all the animals I have. I realized that I did not have enough to do with Farm Town so I log into Danny's Facebook and I set him up with a Farm so I could take care of that.

Couple of weeks ago in my Eating Disorders Addiction Recovery Meeting I realized that when I try not going to Food when I am having the moment of whatever when my Food addiction wants to take over I've been going to Farm Town. The only problem with that is once I get started I get sucked in for 3-4 hours on the computer. I've done nothing else the last couple weeks. I checked my e-mails tonight and each had at least 150 to 300 emails in them. This week I was reminded that the most important thing with recovering from my addiction is the gospel and the atonement of Jesus Christ.

Satan is trying to use every tool he can to get me down and pull me away from what's important. I find myself staying up late more like tonight. I've been kinda nervous about my 5K coming up in exactly a week. I think that Satan is trying so hard to get me so frustrated and discouraged that I will just not go. I won't let him. I told my therapist that if I had to crawl across the finish line I would.

One of the things that has been hard on me is I been working so hard and I don't feel that I am getting enough support from those that want this so bad for me. There are some that have been so much better than others and I am so grateful. I have realized that I am doing this for me and my family. I need to focus on that reason and not be so concerned about the other stuff. As I think about it, most people I know don't understand what I go through every day to stay on the right path with my addiction. It is a constant process.

I am so thankful that I have Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to help me through this. Sometimes I start thinking that I am doing this on my own and I'm not. They are always with me. I just need to accept and trust in them.

Thought of the day

Recognize the goodness of God and your dependence upon the atonement of Jesus Christ and then act upon it.

30 Random things about me.

In trying to keep this blog updated more regularly I am posting this random survey I had saved. Enjoy. I know I did filling it out.
1. Have you ever been searched by the cops? Nope. But been busted by the cops once.
2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters? Yes only on the dropping parts.
3. When’s the last time you’ve been sledding? 12 years ago.
4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? With my husband only.
5. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes
6. Do you consider yourself creative? Yes, I just don't express it enough.
7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife? Yes
8. Team Aniston or Team Jolie? I have always liked Angelina Jolie for her movies.
9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics? Some but not enough.
10. Do you know how to play poker? Yes but I am rusty.
11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? Yes on my mission once cause I couldn't sleep.
12. What’s your favorite commercial?
13. Who was your first love? Daniel James Saxton my husband. Christopher Watkins was my first crush.
14. If you’re driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around you, do you run a red light? I have done it a few times.
15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? Yes
16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees? No preference.
17. Have you ever been Ice Skating? Yes alot when in my singles ward.
18. How often do you remember your dreams? Twice a week.
19. What’s the one thing on your mind? Always Food.
20. Do you always wear your seat belt? No
21. What talent do you wish you had? Dancing.
22. Do you like Sushi? Never had it and probably won't raw fish eggs sound gross.
23. What do you wear to bed? Usually just my underwear. I do wear a nightgown sometimes.
24. Do you truly hate anyone? No, just hate things people do.
25. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be? Harrison Ford
26. Do you know anyone in jail? Yes, Danny's Uncle
27. What food do you find disgusting? Sushi
28. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back? Sometimes in high school. Not now that I can remember.
29. Have you ever been punched in the face? Once
30. Do you believe in angels and demons? Yes. Jesus Christ and people who have died are our angels. Satan and his followers are demons.

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY

This day always reminds me of my mission on Ireland. I love the Irish and was happy to be among them. So we celebrate a piece of Irish history today.

Happy St. Patrick's day to you all. ERIN GO BRAGH - Ireland Forever.

Thought of the day

Always remember the love a Mother has for her child and apply that same love to yourself. Remember that Jesus said, Love one another as I have loved you.

5K on May 9, 2009

As you have been reading on my blog. I will be walking the Race for the Cure 5K. I am really excited. I've been exercising 3 times a week or more. I decided to get a membership to a gym to help me through. I've been doing some exercise at home with my children. And they love it. I've been making better food choices and cutting my portions. So far I have lost 44 pounds. 15 pounds of that in the last month and week. I have also been going through the LDS Family Services Addiction Recovery Program. This program has helped me see that through the Lord everything is possible. I am recovering from my Food Addiction. I go to a Support Group for Eating Disorders every Thursday night at the Highland Seminary building at 7:30pm. I would love to have any of you come if you wish. The group is amazing it has helped me see that there are others struggling with my same or similar issues and we support and help each other.
I am so thankful to my therapist for encouraging me to do something that I never thought I could. She has helped me see the amazing power I have to accomplish things I never thought I could. I am so thankful to the Lord for guiding me. I am so thankful for the love he shows to me. I see the amazing things he has given us to push through the trials and temptations of this life. I am so thankful for prayer and scriptures.

Well if you want to walk my 5K with me here is the website that you can do that at. You can register as an individual. If you decide you would like to join me comment and tell me so I can be excited to have you join me in this journey.

http://race.komenslc.org/site/TR?fr_id=1000&pg=entry


Once my 5K is over I would love to take a vacation to a beach similar to this. This is one of my happy places.

Kara and Christopher Post

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FoeHawk

Amy cut my hair today and and I got a Joico it was so nice. I was looking for something new so here is my new hairdo. I am excited to play with this.

Kara wanted to add a K to my post. So here it is. kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK Kaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrra

My little Batman

Christopher at Halloween wanted to be Batman. So we went to Wal-mart the night before Halloween and found this mask. He wore it around the store for a while and then he took it off. He was so excited about it. He wore it around the house. Well when it was time to get ready for Halloween. We could not find a Batman costume so we ended up buying Batman and Superman pajamas. When it was time to get him dressed. He saw the Batman and Superman pajamas and wanted to wear "Fly Mommy, No Batman" So he was Superman for Halloween.

He loves Batman as much as Superman(Fly). But I loved the picture and wanted to show it off.

My famous Husband

So Danny's has been just excited and going crazy with the new He-man action figures they are doing. He visits www.he-man.org everyday and comments and sends photo's. Well Danny sent some of the photo's he took of his He-man action figures to a guy on the website and he made a movie of all the different photo's he received from fan's.

Visit www.he-man.org to view the video showing from January 30th.

Or copy and paste this link http://blip.tv/file/1698396

Smallville

Smallville has been one of my most favorite TV shows playing. I have enjoyed every season. They had some seasons that were not as great as others. I look forward to watching each episode. There are many things I love about the series. One is of course Tom Welling he is an amazing actor and great model. He plays Clark Kent so well. I also love the relationship Clark has with Chloe. I am so glad that with this season they are working on the relationship with Lois Lane. I hope that they stick with it.

Draper Temple Openhouse

On January 23,2009. I took Danny and the children to see the Draper Temple. It was a wonderful experience. We were running late because of the weather. We ended up at the wrong church. They were good and we finally got on the bus to the temple. Kara and Christopher loved the bus ride. They wanted to see everything going on. When we arrived at the temple walking through was so beautiful. Kara loved all the sparkles. Christopher like the cows (oxen) as he says. The paintings they had were magnificient. Danny loved the celestial room. Audrey loved the celestial room as well and the many paintings. Just feeling the spirit there was amazing. Kara and Christopher could not wait to have there cookies and water at the end. The bus ride back from the temple was great for the children. It was amazing to be in a place I wish to be every day.

Painting with my Children

Christopher had fun painting his face, hands and arms.

Kara's art. Left there is a sun and fast fast cars and a cookie. On the Right is Rolly.

Audrey's painting of Superman. Close up of Superman himself.

Christopher's painting and stamping with different vehicles and sea animals.

Audrey's Superman. A close up picture.

More of Kara's art. Left is Crabs in the sea with a red sun. Right is Spots and a Flag to Go, Go, Go.

Audrey's Superman. Complete view of picture.

Toys that are loved.

"My favorite pony and fairy"


"Mommy, Puppy"

The Best Necklace ever!

Lena, my wonderful sister in law gave Kara and I necklaces for Christmas. Thursday night Kara found my necklace and wanted me to wear it. So I wore it out that night. New years day I gave Kara her necklace and she has been wearing it ever since. She loves it so much. She talks about it all the time. Kara told me that wanted me to be beautiful too. Thank you so much Lena for the best necklace ever!




Lena works for the company that makes this jewelery so I know where to get it.

Thankful Sunday 01-11-09

-Thankful for antibiotics. I have had the same sinus infection for almost a month. I am starting to feel better. I hope that the medicine I am taking with help me kick it.

-Thankful for support and motivation from family, friends, and my therapist. Getting myself this far in my weight loss and pulling myself through my emotional baggage has been really hard. I could not have done any of what I did without it and Jesus Christ. We can not succeed with anything in this life without trusting in Jesus Christ to help us in all we do.

-Thankful for this blog. I found it is a good way to let go of my stress and write. Rather than going to the fridge and eat. You will see more things posted more often. So come back more regularly. I've found myself posting sometimes 2-3 posts in a day if I need to.

-Thankful for my job. I've worked at Lexington Law Firm for 4 years, 3 months. This job has brought so many good things to our life. I started working from home this was right after Kara was born so I could work here and be with her. Then in December 08' they made some changes and my whole department was replaced with a machine. I then applied for a different position and started there. I now work as a paralegal. It can be stressful at times. But they make it fun. Just this last summer when the new Batman movie came out The Dark Knight my work paid for everyone to go see it. They did games and fun activities during the week. One of the games was The Biggest Batman Item. I decided with Danny permission to take all the Batman action figures he had for this game. So I had the Biggest Batman collection. Well I won. They gave me $50 in gas cards. I was very grateful at the time. Gas was so crazy. It was a life saver.

Love these pictures.

This is one of the cutest pictures.
Noah, Lena and Kara.


One of the cutest smiles I have seen.
Lena and Kara.