Baby Goals

The last few days have been up and down. I was really discouraged and in the depths of despair. I really just had nothing good to think about. My Dad called Thursday and asked if he could come and talk with me. After the talk and blessing I felt better. I also did Karate last night and got a really good workout in. I felt better today. It was a slow moving day and that was rough. At work I was more distracted today and so my eating seemed a little better. I wanted to have Carne Asada Fries for dinner but refrained.
I was thinking though last night at Karate my ankle and knees were hurting. I think I need to find a good brace for both. I also noticed that my arm muscles were tiring out and feeling weak. So I was thinking some exercise with weights would help build muscle. This is my next step to buy some 5 lb., 10 lb., and on up weights. I checked my weight yesterday and I've lost 6 lbs. So far. Yay! Me. I have made a goal to lose 47 lbs by May for the Race for the Cure 5K. I will then be under the weight that is needed to have Surgery to get my IUD out that is floating in my body. And it will be a safer surgery. Then I will work more toward my goal of the 10K in October with my Bonus Mom.
Well that is all for now.

Struggle

This weekend has been a bit of a struggle. I was sick on Friday with eating something bad Thursday and just been struggling to get feeling good. Saturday I had no energy but still had to work for my second job as a caregiver for an elderly woman. I plugged through like I do every week and went home exhausted.  It's hard when I know that some of my weight issues are emotional and what to do? People ask how they can help and I just don't know.

Emotions

My weight loss journey is about my weight but also the emotions and experiences that have happened to me. Some days it's harder for me to recognize the emotions and I end up bingeing. Other days I recognize them but don't want to deal with them so I eat to cover them up.
I've been watching other friend that have been working on weight loss and having success and I wish I could hqave success too. Then I have to remember baby steps Audrey. My journey will be different. I can do it.
I've been in the depths of despair so long it taking time to work out of it. With the new year a new start. I'm starting to use my CPAP again. Doing TaoBo in the morning. Now I just need to work more on my nutrition and exercise at night. I've started and I just need to remember baby steps.
My Bonus Mom has challenged me to walk a 10K with her in October. I want to do it. I know I can do it.

My weight loss journey so far

I just downloaded the blogger app to my phone. I am excited to see how this will work. My journey so far has been a little hard. So far Kara has been good about getting up and doing the 8-minute work-out of Tao-Bo. It's been great to do it together. She has been a good modivator. This is all for now. Look for more in the near future.