New Template

Ohhh!!! I saw this new template. And it made me giddy. This reminds me of the 70's, disco, and shag carpet. I love the greenish color and the blue flowers. Oh I am so excited. Yeah!!!

Happy 35th to me!!

WOW I never thought I would be 35. My birthday day was great. I enjoyed a birthday lunch with my BEST FRIEND Kristen. I enjoyed all the birthday wishes from people at work. I loved the birthday wishes from people on Facebook. I enjoyed the many phone calls, texts, and gifts from Family and Friends. On Saturday I will enjoy a birthday lunch with my Mom, and sisters. Then on Monday I will take the day off and enjoy a trip to Wheeler Farm with Kara and her school class. It's great to be loved and to have a great birthday for a few days.

Just some thoughts I have had today. I enjoyed telling people about my birthday at work. I don't feel 35 yet. I was grateful that I was able to just enjoy myself and just watch TV for a bit when I came home from work.

Things I am grateful for are my family, my health, the gospel, my love for many things, and to just be alive and have the experience of this life. I am grateful for my husband and all he does to help our family, my children and the joy they bring me. I am grateful for Jesus Christ and all he did for us. I am grateful for all my friends and family for all they do.

My sweet daughter Kara wants to leave a note for me with my birthday note so here it is: moooommyyy, bxrhr1234455677890askarayyxcvbmasdfgdfghjklqqqwwweetyipzmaa35hjklzxcvb
love kkkkkkkaaaaarrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaa :)

My Handsome Christopher now wants to leave a note too.
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee444444444444444444444444444444444444tttttttttttttttttttttttooooooooooo oooiii\iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikllllllllllllllllllllll;;;;;;;;;;;ccccccccccccccccccccxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii8888888ddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddfffffffff
Thank you to my sweet children for the fun notes.

Wishing

So today I am feeling....


And all I want to do is be in the temple. Feeling the presence of the Lord. To be hugged and know that I am going to be ok. That I can work through all that is weighing me down.

Thank you Heavenly Father for giving us our brother Jesus Christ and for the atonement. Thank you Jesus for sacrificing yourself for me. Thank you for always being here for me. Right now I feel I need it 24/7.

Sunday Update

This is one of the pictures taken on Saturday 8/22/09 when I finished my second 5K. Yah ME!! There will be more to come. So return soon to see the whole story about MY OWN 5K.

I feel like the borg. But I am not the borg. These were all the cables I was hooked up to when they did my Sleep Study. Diagnosis confirmed: Sleep Apnea. I am sleeping better I think.

MY OWN 5K

Don't give up - You are Loved

Date:
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Time:
7:30am - 9:30am
Location:
Corner of 3rd Ave. and I St. - My house
Street:
162 I St
City/Town:
Salt Lake City, UT


For the past year I've been working on recovery from a food addiction and losing weight. I've lost 60 pounds so far.

I decided that since I was unable to register for the 5K on Saturday. I've mapped out my own route. I will be walking my own 5K.

I've been struggling with keeping on track with my food addiction and I needed some inspiration. I know that doing this will help me work toward the small goals I have for myself. Without the Lord's help I will not succeed.

Anyone can come and walk with me. Even if you don't walk the whole route I would love the company.

Thanks to all who have supported me.

Kara Speaks..

"I love Auntie Lou. bghhhrp3333331111111. Aunt Mimi I love her. zxxxxxoooooooxxx.
I love Aunt Emilee. I love everyone Mommy." kara

"akxrkzkaraaaa4 I love to play with my cousins. qweryuyio Auntie Lou asdfgghjjklllll Auntie Lou typed different."

"Baby Spongebob is so cute." sconvos123456789034zxcvbnm

"I am Supergirl! I love her. dfKARA SAXTON 123456789000000 QWERRTTUKAOATGZKAKO MOMMY HAS A DIFFERENT NAME. IT HAS LOTS OF K'S AND IS IN BIG LETTERS."

Thought of the Day

"No family can have peace, no life can be free from the storms of adversity unless that family and that home are built on foundations of morality, fidelity, and mutual respect. There cannot be peace where there is not trust; there cannot be freedom where there is not loyalty. The warm sunlight of love will not rise out of a swamp of immorality."

Gordon B. Hinckley, "In Search of Peace and Freedom," Ensign, Aug 1989, 2

I read this thought this morning and wanted to share. President Hinckley was a great prophet and I know that he was a prophet of God. I know that families can be forever. I know that as we work to do what is right and when we struggle the atonement of Jesus Christ is there to help us through.

Life with Little Stress

Well I wanted to post about my recent changes in my life. At the end of June I was really struggling with my job and I was worried that I may lose it. I had prayed and asked what I should do. I decided that I would visit the Manager in our Data Entry department to see if she was hiring. She was not. But made the comment that I would be great to have working in Doc Prep. I had wished that could happen. A week went by and things were still the same at work. The rules and requirements were becoming so strict I felt I could not breath. I would wake up stress about going to work and come home stressed about my day at work. I found myself getting frustrated with Danny and the children for small things. I realized that I needed to do something. I went and talked to the Manager again in Data Entry. She said things are still the same. She then suggested that I speak with the Attorney over her department and explain my situation. I waited a couple days and I saw the Manager from Data Entry walk by my desk and she asked if I had talked to the Attorney yet. I told her No not yet. She encouraged me to talk to him so I went shortly after that and talked to the Attorney. He understood my situation and said he would talk with one of the directing attorneys and get back with me. Half hour later he told me every thing was good and I could move. I sorted out all the details and when I could move. Turns out they wanted me to help with calls on July 6th since we had been off for two days for the Fourth of July. So I started my new job in the Data Entry Department on July 9th. I am doing Doc Prep which is pulling credit reports from websites that clients have provided to us. I cover for the receptionist for breaks and lunches or the whole day if she is not here and I am signing. It is very similar to the job I started with at Lexington Law Firm. It has been almost two weeks. I work four 10 hour shifts. I have Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday off. I come home and I am not worried about work. I just enjoy my children and Danny. I look forward to going to work. I talked with my Manager yesterday and she told me. I've been doing a great job and she is so grateful to have me in her department. This last week with the Regular Receptionist out for the week and issues with the person covering she was grateful she had me to help out. She has been happy with all the other work I have done. The only stress I have had about work this week. Is when the computer at the reception desk broke. They had to replace the power supply and adjust a few things.

I thank my Heavenly Father for all the blessings I have received. I am grateful that I have a good job. I am so grateful for Danny and the work he put in to be home early enough for me so I can be to work on time and all the work he does watching the children while I am at work. I am happy that I can have more time with my family.

10th Wedding Anniversary

Yesterday was our 10th Wedding Anniversary. It was such a great day. We decided to spend time being together and enjoying each other. My Mom took the kids in the afternoon and we went and watched a movie. X-men Orgins - Wolverine. Very good movie. I really enjoyed it. Then we went to dinner we enjoyed the tastes of the Olive Garden. MMMMMmmm it was soooo good. I tried something new and it was really good. We talked about most memorable moments, funny things we remember, a rare moment that might have been forgotten, and talked about where we want to go from here. Talked about some small goals to help continue our path in marriage. It was so nice to just enjoy us together with no kids.

Love and Support

Doctrine and Covenants 84:88
"And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."

Every Thursday night I go to an Addiction Recovery Program meeting for eating disorders. Last night one of the missionaries shared this scripture. We had talked about step 1 "Honesty. Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable."

As we talked about recognizing our addictions it helped me be reminded how important Jesus Christ and his atonement is in my life. We read through the Introduction and there is a paragraph that says, "By being humble and honest and calling upon God and others for help, you can overcome your addictions through the atonement of Jesus Christ. Just as we are recovered, you can recover and enjoy all the blessings of the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Last night I thought about what is holding me back from moving forward and losing more weight. It is because I am not Trusting in the Lord to help me. I keep thinking to myself that I have to do it on my own. I am so grateful that I recognize that I need to Trust in the Lord and let him help me. Step 3 is "Trust in God. Decide to turn your will and your life over to the care of God the Eternal Father and His Son, Jesus Christ."

I know that I need to start Trusting in God now. I've been stubborn. I just keep thinking that I can do this on my own. I need to have control. I won't get very far on my own. I need the help of God. I need to trust in Jesus Christ and his atonement. That is why it is there.

I am so grateful to my counselor for introducing me to this program. I look forward to going each week and be uplifted and fulfilled with God's love for me and others struggling with a similar addiction as mine.

I want to thank all who have and will continue to support me. I struggle everyday to do the right and to reach to God when I need him. This will be a lifetime process for me. I am grateful that I have people around me that support me to keep me going.
Thank you all.

Quotes from LDS Family Services Addiction Recovery Program: A Guide to Addiction Recovery and Healing.

Meeting I attend is Thursday night at 7:30pm at the Highland High School Seminary Building.

Fun Music videos I watched tonight

Alvin and the Chipmunks - Shake your groove thing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIaTEOUCft0

Fun Factory - I wanna be with you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjhxIrcTgeU

Duffy - Mercy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kOCpfTP


BatBaby - Hilarious Preview.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGjiXddgayQ


I hope you enjoy. I certainly did tonight. Dance and move your body.

Things that make me happy

I needed to be reminded of what blessings I have and what makes me happy. So here it is.


Seeing my family every day makes me smile and happy. When I come home from work I see my family and the kids come running to see me and I am so happy to home.


Jesus Christ and the gospel. I know help me get through the trials of life. I realized that this last couple weeks how important staying close to the Lord is. I have always loved this picture. I imagine myself sitting next to Jesus and us looking out and talking.


Kittens and Cats are such wonderful creatures. I can't resist a kitten. I love to hold them. I also love when they will sit with you and let you pet them. I always loved when any of the cats we have owed. Licked me. I always knew they loved me.


I've always loved cycling. I hope that I can get a nice bike. It was one thing that helps me get away from life for a while.


Love bluebells because they are blue my favorite color. The look like bells.


Stargate Atlantis. I love this show. It has great action and the actor and actress' are great. I love watching the episodes over and over.

New Phone

WoooHooo!!! Yipee!! YeeHaa!!

I am getting me new phone this week. I am so excited. When we got our tax refund I was thinking that we had other things that we would need to use it for and so I am feeling sad that I could not get my new phone. I decided to check the Sprint website anyway. It was FREE!!! Yeah I am so excited I will have my new phone hopefully by Friday.

Oh I can't wait. I am a gitty school girl.

The 5K is here.

This is one of the reasons I am doing this.

I am just sitting here eating my breakfast and I am nervous. I wanted to have some eggs for breakfast for some protein. But there was none left. So I figured something else out. I am really excited about today. I have my whole family supporting me all in what they can do. My Dad and Bonus Mom and all my Bonus Brothers and Sisters do this every year. I am excited to see them. Lena, Emilee and my best friend Kristen are going to walk with me. I want to thank my therapist for believing in me. I have learned so many amazing things from her. She has showed me that I am more than I think I am. She helped me see that I can't do anything with out the Lord help. Well Amy, Nik and My Mom are going to be at the finish line. Lou has been busy with moving and getting her new place ready with Emilee. I am so grateful that I have such a great family that love me. I realized that my support was there and just wasn't seeing it. Thank you everyone for believing in me. My support group I go to on Thursday nights all the people I see there are supporting me. Sister Pederson one of the missionaries is a wonderful lady and she told me that she would be thinking of me today. This is a small step toward my ultimate goal. Now that this time is here I have to start thinking of my next goal to keep me going. Well must finish getting ready. Kristen will be here soon.

Obsession

These are two reasons I get up every day and I commit to myself that I am going to continue my recovery from my food addiction.

Tonight I finally got the children to bed and I was going to go to bed myself and then I thought. I better check my Farm on Facebook so none of my crops go bad and lose money. I realized that I am obsessed with Farm Town on Facebook. The kids love helping me and they tell me what to plant. The love all the animals I have. I realized that I did not have enough to do with Farm Town so I log into Danny's Facebook and I set him up with a Farm so I could take care of that.

Couple of weeks ago in my Eating Disorders Addiction Recovery Meeting I realized that when I try not going to Food when I am having the moment of whatever when my Food addiction wants to take over I've been going to Farm Town. The only problem with that is once I get started I get sucked in for 3-4 hours on the computer. I've done nothing else the last couple weeks. I checked my e-mails tonight and each had at least 150 to 300 emails in them. This week I was reminded that the most important thing with recovering from my addiction is the gospel and the atonement of Jesus Christ.

Satan is trying to use every tool he can to get me down and pull me away from what's important. I find myself staying up late more like tonight. I've been kinda nervous about my 5K coming up in exactly a week. I think that Satan is trying so hard to get me so frustrated and discouraged that I will just not go. I won't let him. I told my therapist that if I had to crawl across the finish line I would.

One of the things that has been hard on me is I been working so hard and I don't feel that I am getting enough support from those that want this so bad for me. There are some that have been so much better than others and I am so grateful. I have realized that I am doing this for me and my family. I need to focus on that reason and not be so concerned about the other stuff. As I think about it, most people I know don't understand what I go through every day to stay on the right path with my addiction. It is a constant process.

I am so thankful that I have Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to help me through this. Sometimes I start thinking that I am doing this on my own and I'm not. They are always with me. I just need to accept and trust in them.

Thought of the day

Recognize the goodness of God and your dependence upon the atonement of Jesus Christ and then act upon it.

30 Random things about me.

In trying to keep this blog updated more regularly I am posting this random survey I had saved. Enjoy. I know I did filling it out.
1. Have you ever been searched by the cops? Nope. But been busted by the cops once.
2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters? Yes only on the dropping parts.
3. When’s the last time you’ve been sledding? 12 years ago.
4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? With my husband only.
5. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes
6. Do you consider yourself creative? Yes, I just don't express it enough.
7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife? Yes
8. Team Aniston or Team Jolie? I have always liked Angelina Jolie for her movies.
9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics? Some but not enough.
10. Do you know how to play poker? Yes but I am rusty.
11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? Yes on my mission once cause I couldn't sleep.
12. What’s your favorite commercial?
13. Who was your first love? Daniel James Saxton my husband. Christopher Watkins was my first crush.
14. If you’re driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around you, do you run a red light? I have done it a few times.
15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? Yes
16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees? No preference.
17. Have you ever been Ice Skating? Yes alot when in my singles ward.
18. How often do you remember your dreams? Twice a week.
19. What’s the one thing on your mind? Always Food.
20. Do you always wear your seat belt? No
21. What talent do you wish you had? Dancing.
22. Do you like Sushi? Never had it and probably won't raw fish eggs sound gross.
23. What do you wear to bed? Usually just my underwear. I do wear a nightgown sometimes.
24. Do you truly hate anyone? No, just hate things people do.
25. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be? Harrison Ford
26. Do you know anyone in jail? Yes, Danny's Uncle
27. What food do you find disgusting? Sushi
28. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back? Sometimes in high school. Not now that I can remember.
29. Have you ever been punched in the face? Once
30. Do you believe in angels and demons? Yes. Jesus Christ and people who have died are our angels. Satan and his followers are demons.

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY

This day always reminds me of my mission on Ireland. I love the Irish and was happy to be among them. So we celebrate a piece of Irish history today.

Happy St. Patrick's day to you all. ERIN GO BRAGH - Ireland Forever.

Thought of the day

Always remember the love a Mother has for her child and apply that same love to yourself. Remember that Jesus said, Love one another as I have loved you.

5K on May 9, 2009

As you have been reading on my blog. I will be walking the Race for the Cure 5K. I am really excited. I've been exercising 3 times a week or more. I decided to get a membership to a gym to help me through. I've been doing some exercise at home with my children. And they love it. I've been making better food choices and cutting my portions. So far I have lost 44 pounds. 15 pounds of that in the last month and week. I have also been going through the LDS Family Services Addiction Recovery Program. This program has helped me see that through the Lord everything is possible. I am recovering from my Food Addiction. I go to a Support Group for Eating Disorders every Thursday night at the Highland Seminary building at 7:30pm. I would love to have any of you come if you wish. The group is amazing it has helped me see that there are others struggling with my same or similar issues and we support and help each other.
I am so thankful to my therapist for encouraging me to do something that I never thought I could. She has helped me see the amazing power I have to accomplish things I never thought I could. I am so thankful to the Lord for guiding me. I am so thankful for the love he shows to me. I see the amazing things he has given us to push through the trials and temptations of this life. I am so thankful for prayer and scriptures.

Well if you want to walk my 5K with me here is the website that you can do that at. You can register as an individual. If you decide you would like to join me comment and tell me so I can be excited to have you join me in this journey.

http://race.komenslc.org/site/TR?fr_id=1000&pg=entry


Once my 5K is over I would love to take a vacation to a beach similar to this. This is one of my happy places.

Kara and Christopher Post

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222kkkaarrraaaa This is a product of Kara wanting to push the letter K. She is obessed today with it.





CCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCChhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssssssstttttttttttttttttooooopppppppppphhhhhhhherrrrr222222 This is a product of Christopher w=anting to be like sister and press the letter C.

FoeHawk

Amy cut my hair today and and I got a Joico it was so nice. I was looking for something new so here is my new hairdo. I am excited to play with this.

Kara wanted to add a K to my post. So here it is. kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK Kaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrra

My little Batman

Christopher at Halloween wanted to be Batman. So we went to Wal-mart the night before Halloween and found this mask. He wore it around the store for a while and then he took it off. He was so excited about it. He wore it around the house. Well when it was time to get ready for Halloween. We could not find a Batman costume so we ended up buying Batman and Superman pajamas. When it was time to get him dressed. He saw the Batman and Superman pajamas and wanted to wear "Fly Mommy, No Batman" So he was Superman for Halloween.

He loves Batman as much as Superman(Fly). But I loved the picture and wanted to show it off.

My famous Husband

So Danny's has been just excited and going crazy with the new He-man action figures they are doing. He visits www.he-man.org everyday and comments and sends photo's. Well Danny sent some of the photo's he took of his He-man action figures to a guy on the website and he made a movie of all the different photo's he received from fan's.

Visit www.he-man.org to view the video showing from January 30th.

Or copy and paste this link http://blip.tv/file/1698396

Smallville

Smallville has been one of my most favorite TV shows playing. I have enjoyed every season. They had some seasons that were not as great as others. I look forward to watching each episode. There are many things I love about the series. One is of course Tom Welling he is an amazing actor and great model. He plays Clark Kent so well. I also love the relationship Clark has with Chloe. I am so glad that with this season they are working on the relationship with Lois Lane. I hope that they stick with it.

Draper Temple Openhouse

On January 23,2009. I took Danny and the children to see the Draper Temple. It was a wonderful experience. We were running late because of the weather. We ended up at the wrong church. They were good and we finally got on the bus to the temple. Kara and Christopher loved the bus ride. They wanted to see everything going on. When we arrived at the temple walking through was so beautiful. Kara loved all the sparkles. Christopher like the cows (oxen) as he says. The paintings they had were magnificient. Danny loved the celestial room. Audrey loved the celestial room as well and the many paintings. Just feeling the spirit there was amazing. Kara and Christopher could not wait to have there cookies and water at the end. The bus ride back from the temple was great for the children. It was amazing to be in a place I wish to be every day.

Painting with my Children

Christopher had fun painting his face, hands and arms.

Kara's art. Left there is a sun and fast fast cars and a cookie. On the Right is Rolly.

Audrey's painting of Superman. Close up of Superman himself.

Christopher's painting and stamping with different vehicles and sea animals.

Audrey's Superman. A close up picture.

More of Kara's art. Left is Crabs in the sea with a red sun. Right is Spots and a Flag to Go, Go, Go.

Audrey's Superman. Complete view of picture.