Things that make me happy - The Beach

The beach is a lot of things for me. It's a place I go in my mind to get away when I need to. I have a picture above my computer of a beach. It's a great place. It has in the picture a beach chair. I imagine myself sitting there and enjoying the view and the peace of the beach and ocean.


It's a place I really enjoy. The couple of vacations I've taken where there is a beach. I loved it. I love the ocean. The sounds of the waves washing in. I enjoyed the not so good attempts to Body Surf. I love swimming.


Heavenly Father was so inspired to create such a beautiful thing. I am so thankful for the beaches and oceans we have.

Indiana Jones makes me happy

Well my first post is going to be about Indiana Jones and all the many things that I love about him that make me happy.

First off in about May 09' I discovered Podcasts and all the many things you can listen to. I started to search a few things that I have always loved and came across the Star Wars podcast The Forcecast. I started listening to the most current episode and they mentioned Indiana Jones and the Indycast. I just about jumped out of my seat. I came home that night and downloaded some of the episodes. Ed Dolista is the host. After listening to that first show. I was hooked. I love the way he formats the show and how other fans are able to contribute. Rob does great Indy opinion's which is a poll of something Indy related. I love Mitchell's Raider's rant. The trivia always stumps me, so I just enjoy listening to how other's found the answers to the trivia questions. I enjoy Ron the Reviewer and his reviews of anything Indy. Ed and all the crew do such a great job. Right now and the past few months this has brought me so much joy. I look forward to Monday's knowing I get to download my new Indycast episode. Tuesday morning during work I listen. I am always taking notes so I can keep thinking Indy as they say on the Indycast. Thanks for all you guys do.

Next a little history. My first real memory of Indiana Jones was in 1989 when Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade was in theater's. My birthday that year my Aunt that has my same birthday took me to see the movie. It was truly one of the best birthday's I can remember. I saw Raider's and Temple of Doom. But because of that memory and great day. Last Crusade is still my favorite. When I was young my dad had a whip and I would take it into the backyard and try to crack it. I was not very good but it was fun. My Dad and I would watch the movies together and we would always pop popcorn and make it a fun movie night. I even now have the Raider's theme for my Dad's Ring tone on my phone.

This picture is a fun scene for me. I love the relationship that Indy and his Dad had. This scene just brings out the fun. I watched the movies growing up and enjoyed all the fun and excitement I got out of them. I even dressed up as Indy one year for Halloween. My own style Fedora is the only thing I still have. When I got married my husband enjoyed the movies too and so we watched them together. Then I heard they were making a new movie. I was so excited. I saw that the Young Indiana Jones Chronicles was playing on TV so I watched as many as they played. My husband and I went and saw the movie. There was good and bad things that I liked about the movie. But overall I loved it. It was so great to see Harrison Ford as Indy again. I then bought some of the action figures and have one displayed at home and when I had a bigger desk at work I had one displayed there. I also bought a book that talked about the different movies and facts about them. The name of the book escapes my mind right now. Since then I am always looking to collect more things. Due to money restrictions I buy what I can. I did have a Indy filled Christmas. I received the Movie Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull, and two video games for my Nintendo DS. Lego Indiana Jones 2 and Indiana Jones and the Staff of Kings. I've only played a little of each but they are so much fun. I've been interested in collecting more things. A couple of weeks ago while listening to the Indycast they mentioned there was a Young Indiana Jones Pocket Knife. I've always loved pocket knife's and would love to have one. I did search a few places on the Internet but no luck. Maybe someday.

OK so last thing about Indiana Jones that makes me happy is Harrison Ford. He is such an amazing actor. I have loved almost all the movies he has done. He has done so a wide range of different movies and has such great acting skills. But Indiana Jones and Han Solo have to be my most favorite roles he's played. I am just grateful for such great people who have such great talent to entertain us. Some of Harrison Ford's other movies that I have enjoyed watching are the Star War's trilogy, Regarding Henry, The Fugitive, Air Force One, The Witness, Patriot Games, Clear and Present Danger, 6 days 7 nights, Presumed Innocent, Sabrina, Random Hearts, K-19: The Widowmaker, Hollywood Homicide, Working Girl, and The Frisco Kid. I also enjoyed his small role on the TV series Gunsmoke.

Thank you to all out there who give me my Indiana Jones fix and help me be happy. As they say on the Indycase "If adventure has a name it must be Indiana Jones."

Things that make me happy

Well I was thinking tonight that I wanted to post on my blog. Well I just couldn't think what to post. Then I started thinking about one of the things that my friend told me a few weeks ago. Think about the things that make you happy. So I am going to write my blog about things that make me happy. Each post will be on one thing. I hope you all enjoy.

Feeling the pain

Well yesterday I had the day off and enjoyed a good day. I went shopping and exchanged some clothes I got from Christmas that were too little. Yes I am way behind. After I went to lunch with my best friend. I dropped her off at her house and I look at my watch it says 3:05pm. Crap I thought I am suppose to pick up my daughter in 5 minutes. I was at least 15 minutes away. So I started on my way. Well I ended up getting to the school at 3:25pm. As we were leaving the school she was upset that she could not play with a school mate and I was not watching where I was going and I landed on a big piece of ice in the middle of the sidewalk. I then felt my foot just go the wrong way and just felt the pain I was already feeling in that foot intensify 100 times. I was in such pain. Thankfully I had the foot wrapped in an Ace bandage since it was hurting earlier. It could have been worse. I got a new ankle brace later that night.

Starting out 2010

Well 2010 has started out a little rough for me. I was sick and my family was sick too. I've had off and on problems with the heat in our apt. I had a huge fight with my friend and I have not been able to do anything about talking to her. I've been at a stand still on my weight. I feel that everyone is giving up on me and different areas of my life. The lady at my 2nd job had a Mini Stroke and that's been fun to deal with her drama with her family and man she is living with. I've been feeling kinda lost. Made a goal to read my scriptures every day and to have personal and family prayer every day and have FHE every Monday with the family. I have been able to keep those up and it helps me through each day and week. Well that's all I have to say today. Night to all. I am going to post more. I spend too much time on Facebook.

New Template

Ohhh!!! I saw this new template. And it made me giddy. This reminds me of the 70's, disco, and shag carpet. I love the greenish color and the blue flowers. Oh I am so excited. Yeah!!!

Happy 35th to me!!

WOW I never thought I would be 35. My birthday day was great. I enjoyed a birthday lunch with my BEST FRIEND Kristen. I enjoyed all the birthday wishes from people at work. I loved the birthday wishes from people on Facebook. I enjoyed the many phone calls, texts, and gifts from Family and Friends. On Saturday I will enjoy a birthday lunch with my Mom, and sisters. Then on Monday I will take the day off and enjoy a trip to Wheeler Farm with Kara and her school class. It's great to be loved and to have a great birthday for a few days.

Just some thoughts I have had today. I enjoyed telling people about my birthday at work. I don't feel 35 yet. I was grateful that I was able to just enjoy myself and just watch TV for a bit when I came home from work.

Things I am grateful for are my family, my health, the gospel, my love for many things, and to just be alive and have the experience of this life. I am grateful for my husband and all he does to help our family, my children and the joy they bring me. I am grateful for Jesus Christ and all he did for us. I am grateful for all my friends and family for all they do.

My sweet daughter Kara wants to leave a note for me with my birthday note so here it is: moooommyyy, bxrhr1234455677890askarayyxcvbmasdfgdfghjklqqqwwweetyipzmaa35hjklzxcvb
love kkkkkkkaaaaarrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaa :)

My Handsome Christopher now wants to leave a note too.
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee444444444444444444444444444444444444tttttttttttttttttttttttooooooooooo oooiii\iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikllllllllllllllllllllll;;;;;;;;;;;ccccccccccccccccccccxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii8888888ddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddfffffffff
Thank you to my sweet children for the fun notes.

Wishing

So today I am feeling....


And all I want to do is be in the temple. Feeling the presence of the Lord. To be hugged and know that I am going to be ok. That I can work through all that is weighing me down.

Thank you Heavenly Father for giving us our brother Jesus Christ and for the atonement. Thank you Jesus for sacrificing yourself for me. Thank you for always being here for me. Right now I feel I need it 24/7.

Sunday Update

This is one of the pictures taken on Saturday 8/22/09 when I finished my second 5K. Yah ME!! There will be more to come. So return soon to see the whole story about MY OWN 5K.

I feel like the borg. But I am not the borg. These were all the cables I was hooked up to when they did my Sleep Study. Diagnosis confirmed: Sleep Apnea. I am sleeping better I think.

MY OWN 5K

Don't give up - You are Loved

Date:
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Time:
7:30am - 9:30am
Location:
Corner of 3rd Ave. and I St. - My house
Street:
162 I St
City/Town:
Salt Lake City, UT


For the past year I've been working on recovery from a food addiction and losing weight. I've lost 60 pounds so far.

I decided that since I was unable to register for the 5K on Saturday. I've mapped out my own route. I will be walking my own 5K.

I've been struggling with keeping on track with my food addiction and I needed some inspiration. I know that doing this will help me work toward the small goals I have for myself. Without the Lord's help I will not succeed.

Anyone can come and walk with me. Even if you don't walk the whole route I would love the company.

Thanks to all who have supported me.

Kara Speaks..

"I love Auntie Lou. bghhhrp3333331111111. Aunt Mimi I love her. zxxxxxoooooooxxx.
I love Aunt Emilee. I love everyone Mommy." kara

"akxrkzkaraaaa4 I love to play with my cousins. qweryuyio Auntie Lou asdfgghjjklllll Auntie Lou typed different."

"Baby Spongebob is so cute." sconvos123456789034zxcvbnm

"I am Supergirl! I love her. dfKARA SAXTON 123456789000000 QWERRTTUKAOATGZKAKO MOMMY HAS A DIFFERENT NAME. IT HAS LOTS OF K'S AND IS IN BIG LETTERS."

Thought of the Day

"No family can have peace, no life can be free from the storms of adversity unless that family and that home are built on foundations of morality, fidelity, and mutual respect. There cannot be peace where there is not trust; there cannot be freedom where there is not loyalty. The warm sunlight of love will not rise out of a swamp of immorality."

Gordon B. Hinckley, "In Search of Peace and Freedom," Ensign, Aug 1989, 2

I read this thought this morning and wanted to share. President Hinckley was a great prophet and I know that he was a prophet of God. I know that families can be forever. I know that as we work to do what is right and when we struggle the atonement of Jesus Christ is there to help us through.

Life with Little Stress

Well I wanted to post about my recent changes in my life. At the end of June I was really struggling with my job and I was worried that I may lose it. I had prayed and asked what I should do. I decided that I would visit the Manager in our Data Entry department to see if she was hiring. She was not. But made the comment that I would be great to have working in Doc Prep. I had wished that could happen. A week went by and things were still the same at work. The rules and requirements were becoming so strict I felt I could not breath. I would wake up stress about going to work and come home stressed about my day at work. I found myself getting frustrated with Danny and the children for small things. I realized that I needed to do something. I went and talked to the Manager again in Data Entry. She said things are still the same. She then suggested that I speak with the Attorney over her department and explain my situation. I waited a couple days and I saw the Manager from Data Entry walk by my desk and she asked if I had talked to the Attorney yet. I told her No not yet. She encouraged me to talk to him so I went shortly after that and talked to the Attorney. He understood my situation and said he would talk with one of the directing attorneys and get back with me. Half hour later he told me every thing was good and I could move. I sorted out all the details and when I could move. Turns out they wanted me to help with calls on July 6th since we had been off for two days for the Fourth of July. So I started my new job in the Data Entry Department on July 9th. I am doing Doc Prep which is pulling credit reports from websites that clients have provided to us. I cover for the receptionist for breaks and lunches or the whole day if she is not here and I am signing. It is very similar to the job I started with at Lexington Law Firm. It has been almost two weeks. I work four 10 hour shifts. I have Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday off. I come home and I am not worried about work. I just enjoy my children and Danny. I look forward to going to work. I talked with my Manager yesterday and she told me. I've been doing a great job and she is so grateful to have me in her department. This last week with the Regular Receptionist out for the week and issues with the person covering she was grateful she had me to help out. She has been happy with all the other work I have done. The only stress I have had about work this week. Is when the computer at the reception desk broke. They had to replace the power supply and adjust a few things.

I thank my Heavenly Father for all the blessings I have received. I am grateful that I have a good job. I am so grateful for Danny and the work he put in to be home early enough for me so I can be to work on time and all the work he does watching the children while I am at work. I am happy that I can have more time with my family.

10th Wedding Anniversary

Yesterday was our 10th Wedding Anniversary. It was such a great day. We decided to spend time being together and enjoying each other. My Mom took the kids in the afternoon and we went and watched a movie. X-men Orgins - Wolverine. Very good movie. I really enjoyed it. Then we went to dinner we enjoyed the tastes of the Olive Garden. MMMMMmmm it was soooo good. I tried something new and it was really good. We talked about most memorable moments, funny things we remember, a rare moment that might have been forgotten, and talked about where we want to go from here. Talked about some small goals to help continue our path in marriage. It was so nice to just enjoy us together with no kids.

Love and Support

Doctrine and Covenants 84:88
"And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."

Every Thursday night I go to an Addiction Recovery Program meeting for eating disorders. Last night one of the missionaries shared this scripture. We had talked about step 1 "Honesty. Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable."

As we talked about recognizing our addictions it helped me be reminded how important Jesus Christ and his atonement is in my life. We read through the Introduction and there is a paragraph that says, "By being humble and honest and calling upon God and others for help, you can overcome your addictions through the atonement of Jesus Christ. Just as we are recovered, you can recover and enjoy all the blessings of the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Last night I thought about what is holding me back from moving forward and losing more weight. It is because I am not Trusting in the Lord to help me. I keep thinking to myself that I have to do it on my own. I am so grateful that I recognize that I need to Trust in the Lord and let him help me. Step 3 is "Trust in God. Decide to turn your will and your life over to the care of God the Eternal Father and His Son, Jesus Christ."

I know that I need to start Trusting in God now. I've been stubborn. I just keep thinking that I can do this on my own. I need to have control. I won't get very far on my own. I need the help of God. I need to trust in Jesus Christ and his atonement. That is why it is there.

I am so grateful to my counselor for introducing me to this program. I look forward to going each week and be uplifted and fulfilled with God's love for me and others struggling with a similar addiction as mine.

I want to thank all who have and will continue to support me. I struggle everyday to do the right and to reach to God when I need him. This will be a lifetime process for me. I am grateful that I have people around me that support me to keep me going.
Thank you all.

Quotes from LDS Family Services Addiction Recovery Program: A Guide to Addiction Recovery and Healing.

Meeting I attend is Thursday night at 7:30pm at the Highland High School Seminary Building.

Fun Music videos I watched tonight

Alvin and the Chipmunks - Shake your groove thing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIaTEOUCft0

Fun Factory - I wanna be with you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjhxIrcTgeU

Duffy - Mercy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kOCpfTP


BatBaby - Hilarious Preview.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGjiXddgayQ


I hope you enjoy. I certainly did tonight. Dance and move your body.

Things that make me happy

I needed to be reminded of what blessings I have and what makes me happy. So here it is.


Seeing my family every day makes me smile and happy. When I come home from work I see my family and the kids come running to see me and I am so happy to home.


Jesus Christ and the gospel. I know help me get through the trials of life. I realized that this last couple weeks how important staying close to the Lord is. I have always loved this picture. I imagine myself sitting next to Jesus and us looking out and talking.


Kittens and Cats are such wonderful creatures. I can't resist a kitten. I love to hold them. I also love when they will sit with you and let you pet them. I always loved when any of the cats we have owed. Licked me. I always knew they loved me.


I've always loved cycling. I hope that I can get a nice bike. It was one thing that helps me get away from life for a while.


Love bluebells because they are blue my favorite color. The look like bells.


Stargate Atlantis. I love this show. It has great action and the actor and actress' are great. I love watching the episodes over and over.

New Phone

WoooHooo!!! Yipee!! YeeHaa!!

I am getting me new phone this week. I am so excited. When we got our tax refund I was thinking that we had other things that we would need to use it for and so I am feeling sad that I could not get my new phone. I decided to check the Sprint website anyway. It was FREE!!! Yeah I am so excited I will have my new phone hopefully by Friday.

Oh I can't wait. I am a gitty school girl.

The 5K is here.

This is one of the reasons I am doing this.

I am just sitting here eating my breakfast and I am nervous. I wanted to have some eggs for breakfast for some protein. But there was none left. So I figured something else out. I am really excited about today. I have my whole family supporting me all in what they can do. My Dad and Bonus Mom and all my Bonus Brothers and Sisters do this every year. I am excited to see them. Lena, Emilee and my best friend Kristen are going to walk with me. I want to thank my therapist for believing in me. I have learned so many amazing things from her. She has showed me that I am more than I think I am. She helped me see that I can't do anything with out the Lord help. Well Amy, Nik and My Mom are going to be at the finish line. Lou has been busy with moving and getting her new place ready with Emilee. I am so grateful that I have such a great family that love me. I realized that my support was there and just wasn't seeing it. Thank you everyone for believing in me. My support group I go to on Thursday nights all the people I see there are supporting me. Sister Pederson one of the missionaries is a wonderful lady and she told me that she would be thinking of me today. This is a small step toward my ultimate goal. Now that this time is here I have to start thinking of my next goal to keep me going. Well must finish getting ready. Kristen will be here soon.

Obsession

These are two reasons I get up every day and I commit to myself that I am going to continue my recovery from my food addiction.

Tonight I finally got the children to bed and I was going to go to bed myself and then I thought. I better check my Farm on Facebook so none of my crops go bad and lose money. I realized that I am obsessed with Farm Town on Facebook. The kids love helping me and they tell me what to plant. The love all the animals I have. I realized that I did not have enough to do with Farm Town so I log into Danny's Facebook and I set him up with a Farm so I could take care of that.

Couple of weeks ago in my Eating Disorders Addiction Recovery Meeting I realized that when I try not going to Food when I am having the moment of whatever when my Food addiction wants to take over I've been going to Farm Town. The only problem with that is once I get started I get sucked in for 3-4 hours on the computer. I've done nothing else the last couple weeks. I checked my e-mails tonight and each had at least 150 to 300 emails in them. This week I was reminded that the most important thing with recovering from my addiction is the gospel and the atonement of Jesus Christ.

Satan is trying to use every tool he can to get me down and pull me away from what's important. I find myself staying up late more like tonight. I've been kinda nervous about my 5K coming up in exactly a week. I think that Satan is trying so hard to get me so frustrated and discouraged that I will just not go. I won't let him. I told my therapist that if I had to crawl across the finish line I would.

One of the things that has been hard on me is I been working so hard and I don't feel that I am getting enough support from those that want this so bad for me. There are some that have been so much better than others and I am so grateful. I have realized that I am doing this for me and my family. I need to focus on that reason and not be so concerned about the other stuff. As I think about it, most people I know don't understand what I go through every day to stay on the right path with my addiction. It is a constant process.

I am so thankful that I have Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to help me through this. Sometimes I start thinking that I am doing this on my own and I'm not. They are always with me. I just need to accept and trust in them.